- I want to say all the right things, but right now - i am really struggling
- Took all the tests - yes I have ASD
- My sisters and brother (older) want nothing to do with this diagnosis - the family that I thought I had - that I showed up for - crickets
I feel untethered, ungrounded
At first I was like - woah, yeah - of course - wow! my life finally makes sense
Now - i just want to reel it all in and take it back
This is a lesson that I learned throughout my life - how to diffuse a situations that I inadvertently created -
- adding for clarity that I now understand how much I have been accommodating/understanding people and their behaviors, while not being afforded the same.
I don't want this to go away - it really makes my life make sense
But the consequences
Having a rough go of it today
Cate
Including a photo of me as a kid -
she gives me strength