Published on 12, July, 2020
I have just joined the community; I am 52 so very late to the party. I am not officially diagnosed but after seeing a counsellor recently for anxiety and chronic lifelong social anxiety I have come to realise that it is a distinct possibility I am on the spectrum.
I have spent my whole life hiding my anxiety and trying to function normally whilst always feeling different somehow but never able to figure out why. I hope that here I might be able to finally feel like I belong and rediscover my true self (I have been 'faking it' so long I am not sure I know who that is). From what I have read on here so far everyone seems very friendly and welcoming.
I work as a veterinary nurse, and have a lifelong love of animals, nature, and history. Another of my passions is Scotland - really everything about it! I also spend a lot of time reading.
Just worked out the name change thing - seems a bit more friendly than having just a number
Being a number can be comforting to some here as its anonymous, and you don't have to stress over coming up with a name - you can just focus on saying what you want to say. The numbers are too similar though so a name helps with familiarity, and getting to know people here.
Its healthier to be your true self when you can, even if you have to mask at work or with family or out in public.
I got a bit confused as to who I was as I'm not that good with numbers overall. I'm more of a wordsmith. But I totally get the comfort thing.
I've decided that as I've been hiding elements of myself for over 50 years in real life I would like to try something different on here amongst all you lovely people