A Strange Mental connection.

Hopefully I can regain my support for Chelsea fully when that day comes too. Does the old passion that you lost tend to return after you have rid yourself of the negative influence? 

But honestly I don't really care what the truth is anymore. I just want to move on from it and if what you say is accurate I only have a few months to wait. I can only hope it is.

And there have been several times where I've debated with myself over weather the above story is actually true or just something I've made up to rationalise my actions towards her. There can be no doubt at all that she did betray me and in a terrible way too. the only doubt i have is weather she actually did plan it out like I think she did 

Umm... I wasnt actually in a relationship with her at any point... Hope you gathered that. 

What happened is she was acting in a super nice way throughout one year to give me a false sense of security. Then over time she started slowly doing things to annoy me that would get progressively worse over time. This caused me to do some stupid things which got me into trouble, and gave everyone else in mine and her family the view that I was the one in the wromg when really it was her hurting me. She was manipulating me into doing really bad things, then taking advantage of that to hurt me even further. Also, the fact that she is very beautiful in appearance combined with her actions during her "nice" year and everything she did afterwards all at once makes it 2 or 3 times as difficult to move on from as a normal rejection would. 

I havent told my family this in full. I tried to before but they didn't believe me. I hope you do. 

In terms of not as yet being able to stop thinking about the whole thing with her, part of this involves the physiology of your body having been revved-up by hers to make yet more bodies, and it will take some time for it to rev-down in relation to her. 

Given the time scale you have described, and the season presently - you are quite probably at about the most trying stage of the recovery process right now. This lasts until about spring or summer in a large number of cases. This is essentially a right of passage which most teenagers go through in some way or another quite reluctantly - obviously, but developing and refining a healthy sense of honour and integrity through which is very much the point here.

In my case, resenting my and or my partners wrong-doings was I found about the most effective way of making myself feel really miserable. I realised that it was healthier by far to mainly recall the good stuff, and be positive about the bad stuff too. By this I mean that I learnt to view all mistakes as being valuable lessons. The thing is not so much to analyse the nature of the relationship, but more instead to use deep-and-slow pelvic breathing to feel and as such work through the emotional issues involved.

I'm just looking for ways on how to stop thinking about the whole thing with her and just be how I was a few years ago before it even started.

You are probably right. 

Well one connection of the two opposites involves having a "broken heart" - from the pain of the girlIs betrayal; and as such getting an "Emotional-Bypass" - with your passion and enthusiasm for football being the casuality in this respect. 

One external connection is that premier league footbal has a very intense range of competitive traits involved - as ranging from the most malevolent of foul plays; up to the most benevolent of fair plays - so might the emotional intensity of Chelsea winning or losing as such be a bit too much for you currently?

Another connectioingn might be that the strategic plays of football contrast and emphasise getting systematically played by the girl, and thus perhaps you have had enough of sporting pursuits for the time being at least?

Though yeah I did spend 2 years trying to gain her affections- in really desperate pathetic ways  tbh, before she did everything she did to me and others, which included almost getting me arrested for completly no reason, and in my life I've seen the team win many trophies. Many. Why I've connected the 2 opposites is beyond me, but you know, that's why I'm here, isn't it?

No not really my other interests are detailed transport information and politics.

Would your other interests involve competitive interactions such as with the football in terms of winning the trophey, and with relationships - winning someone's affections?

I've been feeling like this since around the end of July, start of August. And yeah it's only football, I've kept my interests in other stuff.

When we have been emotionally wounded in a particular way - our passion and enthusiasm for other things in general tends to drop off for a while at least. Have you been feeling generally disinterested in most things, or is it just in relation to football? Either way, in which ever way, how long have you been feeling as such?