Our daughter took her own life 5 years ago, after a long depressive illness. Mostly, I have learned to live with it. But, I hate January.
Memories, like little bolts of lightening, have been striking.
We have just had the best christmas for many years, with our son and new daughter in law. I was happy for while.
But it was not like christmas was years ago, the four of us happy together.
Our brand new beautiful christmas bauble was shattered, as though we had dropped it when we took down the tree.