Hi. I have been getting by despite this coronavirus lockdown but today I have been feeling quite low. I think it is due to my hormones (PMS), the monotony of lockdown and possibly a day when i just feel low due to my mental health. I just want today to be where I am left alone, can go back to bed if I want to, deal with emails and essays and just relax. But I have to go out because I feell like if I do not then the people I am living with will accuse me of being unwilful, inconsiderate, antisocial and a bit of a cow. I know I have not always been a good person to be with in lockdown which is why I feel like I have to get out of my room to please them, but I really do not want to and I am worried that if I say that they will get annoyed at me for thinking I am making them miserable and add it to the list of reasons why in their heads they want to kick me out when lockdown is over. It's just for one day I feel low and I feel terrible for being in this state. I do not know what to do as I do not want to be accused of giving out *** vibes (again when I deliberately was not trying to). I am just tired of being asked what I am doing all the time and not being allowed to just breathe.
