Dealing with an 'off-day'

Hi. I have been getting by despite this coronavirus lockdown but today I have been feeling quite low. I think it is due to my hormones (PMS), the monotony of lockdown and possibly a day when i just feel low due to my mental health. I just want today to be where I am left alone, can go back to bed if I want to, deal with emails and essays and just relax. But I have to go out because I feell like if I do not then the people I am living with will accuse me of being unwilful, inconsiderate, antisocial and a bit of a cow. I know I have not always been a good person to be with in lockdown which is why I feel like I have to get out of my room to please them, but I really do not want to and I am worried that if I say that they will get annoyed at me for thinking I am making them miserable and add it to the list of reasons why in their heads they want to kick me out when lockdown is over. It's just for one day I feel low and I feel terrible for being in this state. I do not know what to do as I do not want to be accused of giving out *** vibes (again when I deliberately was not trying to). I am just tired of being asked what I am doing all the time and not being allowed to just breathe.

Parents
  • I sympathise with you. I cant get 'me time's my husband or children want my attention constantly. Its draining. I'm almost at meltdown so yelled at my neighbours to shut their f ing dog up. Hes a small nasty dog who they let run around and he barks and attacks people. Not my usual language or way I am with people but 1 it's the only language they use and seem to grasp and 2 I want quiet. A constantly tapping dog goes through your head. This is why I have headphones but their now on charge. I feel your pain :(

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  • I sympathise with you. I cant get 'me time's my husband or children want my attention constantly. Its draining. I'm almost at meltdown so yelled at my neighbours to shut their f ing dog up. Hes a small nasty dog who they let run around and he barks and attacks people. Not my usual language or way I am with people but 1 it's the only language they use and seem to grasp and 2 I want quiet. A constantly tapping dog goes through your head. This is why I have headphones but their now on charge. I feel your pain :(

Children
  • I am glad that someone understands. I hope your headphones are now fully charged and the dog is now quiet. Like you, I am not usually rude or down but it feels like it is the one time I can convey that I do not want to please everyone today. 

    I would like a day where no one needs me not because I have upset people but because there is nothing that needs to be done, otherwise I will be accused of being lazy. I did have an internal meltdown that prompted my post but it feels like I am not allowed to have this whereas everyone else in the house is allowed to have sympathy for their down days. I do feel drained just like you, especially as I am feeling hormonal which makes me feel even worse.