My family hate me

My family hate me.

Ever since I was diagnosed they treat me differently. They dont speak to me unless they have to. And they act around me like I’m a time bomb that could go off at any second. To make matters worse I am bullied at school by everyone. Name calling. Taking my stuff. Marking me with pens because they know I hate the feel on my skin. Ive told my teachers but they dont like me either. Told me it’s in my mind. I told my mum her words of wisdom ‘You’re a big girl now deal with it’.

When I was really young I didn’t mix well with other children. I struggled to make friends. I didn’t cope well with change to my routine and I struggle to communicate verbally. But ive always been nice as possible because I treat others how I want to be treated. I wish I hadnt been diagnosed. Before the diagnosis my family loved me and now they dont speak to me unless they have to. Its like I have a disease or something.

Recently ive started feeling depressed. Im imagining things as well. Things I know could never be true but a part of me believes it. My minds a mess. But have no one to talk to because everyone avoids me. Even my sisters dont speak to me.

I want to give up. No one loves or likes me. My life is empty and full of misery and pain. I finish school in two years and I wont last another year. I dont know what to do. I have no one. Im hoping to make a friend or two here, see if anyone else is like me and has been through this.

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  • If the bullies mark you with pens...How can the teachers say its in your mind , when the evidence is all over your hands arms etc?  beggars belief doesnt it.

    Please dont give up!....one thought will pile on another and it will be mountainous !...and certainly you are going through alot...but please have hope that youlll find hope and the right words to come to mind. to be able to rest your fears and cope somehow.

    Firstly.,...that bullying needs to totally stop asap...Make an appointment with the headmaster and categorically state youll take it as high as  possible if nothing is done.

    Is there any chance you may be not quite seeing things correctly with your parents?...Im certainly not saying they arent reacting as you say...but go over it a few more times in your mind and double check youve got that right....

    You need councilling and ironically it will be your parents that you need to talk to first regarding this. 

  • Doesnt it? Its ridiculous. I showed my teacher. She looked and said no more. But I recognised the look. It was like she didn’t believe me like id marked myself for attention or to get others in trouble.

    Im hanging on to hope and trying my best to stay positive.

    I’m going to try and talk to my dad tonight. Hes more approachable than my mum. I dont think I imagine this. They dont seem to like me very much. But I am dealing with a lot of mental problems so it could be linked to that. Lately ive been paranoid. Starting protecting myself when Im out and I feel like everyone has it out for me.

    Seeing my headmaster is on my list of to dos but I’m afraid he won’t believe me either.

    Ive tried councilling myself and thats helping I think.

  • I know the feelings and realities youre speaking of.

    Though im sure we would rather others not go through these things...theres a comfort knowing youre not alone..in the sense that, others have and are going through this type of experience...

    Hold onto hope ,and i'm sure  its a matter of time before it gets better.....they'll be peaks and troughs,  but do the best you can...and keep the councilling up and have a good chat with your father.

    All the best Thumbsup

  • Thats true. Even though its awful for everyone who has it. There’s comfort in knowing you’re not the only one. It’s a comfort to me.

    Sometimes I feel my self councilling isn’t healthy but it does help or appears to which is why I keep doing it. Hope is always with me and I like to think staying hopeful helps to even if it doesn’t always feel like it does.

    Thanks. I’ll speak to my dad but whether it will help I dont really know.

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  • Thats true. Even though its awful for everyone who has it. There’s comfort in knowing you’re not the only one. It’s a comfort to me.

    Sometimes I feel my self councilling isn’t healthy but it does help or appears to which is why I keep doing it. Hope is always with me and I like to think staying hopeful helps to even if it doesn’t always feel like it does.

    Thanks. I’ll speak to my dad but whether it will help I dont really know.

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