My family hate me.
Ever since I was diagnosed they treat me differently. They dont speak to me unless they have to. And they act around me like I’m a time bomb that could go off at any second. To make matters worse I am bullied at school by everyone. Name calling. Taking my stuff. Marking me with pens because they know I hate the feel on my skin. Ive told my teachers but they dont like me either. Told me it’s in my mind. I told my mum her words of wisdom ‘You’re a big girl now deal with it’.
When I was really young I didn’t mix well with other children. I struggled to make friends. I didn’t cope well with change to my routine and I struggle to communicate verbally. But ive always been nice as possible because I treat others how I want to be treated. I wish I hadnt been diagnosed. Before the diagnosis my family loved me and now they dont speak to me unless they have to. Its like I have a disease or something.
Recently ive started feeling depressed. Im imagining things as well. Things I know could never be true but a part of me believes it. My minds a mess. But have no one to talk to because everyone avoids me. Even my sisters dont speak to me.
I want to give up. No one loves or likes me. My life is empty and full of misery and pain. I finish school in two years and I wont last another year. I dont know what to do. I have no one. Im hoping to make a friend or two here, see if anyone else is like me and has been through this.
