Who do you turn too? Who is able to listen and understand? Isolation. What do I hope I'll achieve by sharing this? Is the only person I can talk to, remotely like me, who I can trust to understand, myself?
I don't really. I haven't got a lot of people in my life. I'm not particularly close to anyone. I don't find it easy to talk to people that are in my life. At times I have tried to talk to people I've never really found that they understood. But talking does not come easily to me at all. I guess that is why I use this site.
Apart from yourself. Do you have a cat, dog, goldfish?
My son, he's like me in some ways so I feel I can trust him but he's a child. I had my piggy who I felt close to but she was taken away from me. I have my chinchillas who come out and run around with me. My wife but she has her own problems and I don't think she actually understands what or how my mind and emotions work. Parents who never really got how I feel, they were content to humour me not understand me, old fashioned, mental health is a shameful thing so best not talk about it. No one person who I feel understands me or I truly trust. Friends past that I misread and took advantage of me as a source of humour and for their own amusement. I'm all or nothing with relationships with the rest of the world