Anybody out there right now?

Welcome to the forum. As they say in GI Joe, knowing is half the battle. We're here to help you.

ermm, not sure why it's doing this, adding all that formatting rubbish in the end - wasn't me

Hi sam, I'm a woman and according to the passport 36, otherwise more like 14 maybe or sometimes 4... Not in a good way though and not in an academic way either (which is good of course but means the 14 year old inside me is annoying and the 4 year old absolutely not on).

Don't think I struggle with that label as such, it was a bit borderline in some areas anyway, but they aren't the ones causing trouble. But I can't quite deny the ones that do cause problems and it has turned out now that people were annoyed about me all life long and I didn't really notice it. Guess that's a thought I'm struggling with. And knowing that the way I am is seen as unacceptable.

Not sure if I agree with Ferret regarding crying. Well, for the moment it’s probably good, there’s nothing wrong with it, but otherwise (unless very well hidden) it’s seen as a bad thing if that’s a way of dealing with overwhelming emotions others don’t understand (at least not why they would be overwhelming). In fact any reaction to this is seen as bad which may provoke reactions that are even worse, at least if you have been diagnosed quite late, which probably means that people don’t just identify you as autistic the moment they meet you.

A bit funny to read your history – could have been me, except for the seeing the gp a lot thing. Well, and for the fact that it hadn’t appeared to me but a counsellor suggested it. Seems more common that people notice it themselves like you did, perhaps I’ve been a bit ignorant.

Maybe, given that you had this suspicion yourself, it will actually make you feel calmer over time than you did for years. You must have been thinking quite a lot about it over a long time. I can imagine the emptiness now, but a two year old child and everything else going on will hopefully fill this quite soon. The feeling of being overwhelmed by this diagnosis will go, even if it takes a bit. It’s gone from my head, partially at least, and I really wanted to be told that I’m “normal”, it’s gone from other people’s heads, so I’m quite sure it will leave you in peace eventually too. Have you told someone about it who could perhaps look after your son to give you an hour or two of space at short notice? Just knowing that the possibility is there may make you feel more relaxed about it.

Anyway, long phone call got in between, so I hope you perhaps went to bed in the meantime and managed to sleep o.k. and it all feels a bit more manageable now.

Take care and try to be patient, giving your head a bit of time to process things! Would be nice to hear from you again if you feel like it.

All my posts seem mumbo jumbo with no structures let alone any punctuation but I am just trying to put my crazy thoughts out there as they come. I'll slow down with them next time  I'm on here.  Nite ferrets. Thankyou for talking to  me I felt alone. THANKNYOU----------

Thanks ferret. I known its just not possible  for the silence  however it would  be heaven for me,  I can dream hey. I don't  have much support at home, my oh is just so old fashioned and even doesn't believe depression  is real so..its hard.  But I'm not the easiest to live with either. When I really struggle I know to call Samaritans there's just something about talking to someone who doesn't know you helps Me. They are  Really good. Thankyou I will probably post tomorrow if you are around 

Replied if you can work out any actual  useful information from what've typed lol

THIS IS A REPLY TO OKTONAL I WILL REPLY TO FERRET AFTER.

I have always been searching for why I'm different. Troubled child.  Referred to mental health services. Been to see psychiatrists... had cbt. Have had long term depression severe anxiety. Read something one day regards autism and it ticked every box. I went to my go and ASKED FOR A REFERRAL. Whom was the only person I trusted at this point n (went every day) and I went every day as they had not fixed  my "problem". Referred by go after he looked through years and years med history mental health apparentlY. Anyway two years on the waiting list. And hours and hour anand hours  with highly specialist  psychologist anni meet the criteria for Aspergers. So I was right. 

was asking sam

Are you male or female. How old are you? How Are you? Are you struggling? Do you just like to help people? 

Wow you just hit the nail on the head. What now? Somebody pls tell me. I'm a 24 year old female. I have been doing  a lot of crying . Not over the  diagnosis but it's like I'm totally on edge at the moment. So anxiety filled its hell.  I think its also because I've had to go do  certainl things recently like  family have had occasions I'd had to attend which has exhausted Me. I'm so tired. I need 24 hour silence I think but I have a 2 year old boy. 

me too, struggling a bit with this, I mean. And wondering somehow why anyone thought it would be a good idea to get it tested...

Did you come up with the idea yourself or did someone tell you to get tested? Just being interested.

I guess everybody's in bed. I'm really struggling at the moment and looking for somebody to talk to who's just like me.