Futility of Life

hi,

im not sure if it's my bipolar depression or aspergers taking over but I am struggling to improve in psychodynamic therapy because all I can see is the futility in life.  I'm married without children and too old for them now.  I only really stay alive for my husband, I have a couple of friends who I see occasionally, my parents are alive but I am not on speaking terms with them because they will not accept my diagnoses.   I can't work because I burnt out and find being around people regularly unbearable and anyway, they reject me pretty quickly.  I've never really had a social life or been part of a group, im unable to have special interests because I have no energy or interest in things due to inertia and tiredness perhaps partly caused by meds.  I fail to see what the point of life is as I can't find any meaning to it.  Do others struggle with this?