Hey everyone,
As a woman with AuDHD, I find it really difficult to navigate some struggles with my self-concept.
I am a person who has entered a circle of people with relative social power around London. I have always been ostracised from social groups and the "cool kids" growing up, I always felt different. What absolutely shocks me is that even now, at 23, it feels as if people with higher social status consistently identify me as different and target me. I have had a recent experience where someone started a horrible rumour about me, and my Autism has not let that go for months, feeling a massive discrepancy between who I really am and who other perceive me to be or talk about me. Also, no one ever shows an interest to get to know me properly, and it is always my friends who design my social life, while I just follow like a passenger.
I find it so insane that I am almost always sniffed out by these (predominantly men) social butterflies. How can they see that I am different before I even can, and how come, at my age, still feel bullied and left out like my younger self despite my inherent desire to just connect, human-to-human?
It just feels like who I am on the inside and who I am seen as are two polar opposite people.
I would love to know your guys's lived experience with this as well :)
