We keep Xmas pretty low key but I do notice the slow build of tension in my body (even though I enjoy the ritual of xmas) as I progress through the month of December. The extra lights (especially flashing), noise, repeated small talk about Xmas plans, the crowds at the shops. I feel I can't complain openly as will just be shut down and told that I am trying to spoil fun, so I don't bother I just keep the thoughts to myself. Today I am struggling, even just normal home communications and movement of people as they walk through our shared space is making me feel slightly nauseous. I know it will pass so I just try to minimise noise, get into a rhythmic zone while pottering around, and move my body regularly to dissipate the tension. I try not to talk much when I feel like this as it feels like every word needs to be forced out and leaves me feeling exhausted. If I can manage a reset I will probably be fine again in a couple days hopefully in time to actually enjoy Xmas day. Anyone else experience this?
Do you mean that you have no intention of ever setting foot outside your home again? Or, do you mean that you would rather not venture outdoors until after Christmas because there are too many people about?
I feel almost ashamed to admit that the last time I set foot outside and ventured further than my back garden was back in June. I'm hoping to accompany my adult son on a trip to our local town within the next few days. If it happens, I think it will feel like a massive achievement. Up until maybe around 10 years ago, I would regularly visit my local town (at least once a week). Although I disliked it when it was busy, I seemed better able to tolerate it, and rather enjoyed having a mooch around the shops. It's a miracle now if I have the strength and energy to visit my local town more than once a year.
