How do you delete your account here?

There is place for you in this forum.

If you are sure you want to delete your account, you would need to email the moderators,  but you can just take a break instead. And come back when you feel you want it. I'm not officially diagnosed and I'm not sure if I ever be, because it's all complicated, but I want to stay here and connect to others.

Bit of the spirit of Middle Earth in there Stuart333 .

Nice one.

Thanks 

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I wrote this quickly. It can apply to others too.

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Life is not fair, it makes you cry,
It doesn't care how hard you try,
It stares right back without a sigh,
The goal in reach is just a lie.

It is quite hard, of that I know.
To face it down and win the show.
A prize to find complete with bow,
A mythic end it comes so slow.

Perhaps to others you compare.
Assume the odds and game are fair.
A piece of you, have you bared,
Your courage shown, have now shared.
The path you thought was straight and true,
May not be one that's best for you.

To hide away, is but a crutch,
To just survive, it's all too much.
But hole to fill, it cannot do,
For that you need a purpose new.

A voice you have, a tale to tell.
The chapters first on which you dwell,
Your dragons roam, you feel so weak
Within their gaze you feel so meek.

You are still strong, may see it not,
Your kindness shows what you have got,
To just believe, it takes a lot.
Release the brake you've much to give,
And open up your heart to live,
The gems of life from dirt to sieve.

Before the dawn, the darkness shows,
But spark it comes, it starts to glow,
Do not assume, the future's set,
There may be more for you to get.

It may not be so black and white,
There could be more just out of sight.
Hang on to hope, do not despair,
For future comes, if still you dare.

Thank you for your kind comments. Don't be so hard on yourself. You are doing the best you can. That's all anyone can do.

Be aware that alcohol feels good at the time and raises your mood, but the next afternoon, of even a day and a half later, lowers your mood.

I used AI to help me track my mood swings and oscillations. Once you realise this is happening it can help.

Hi Ava

I am a broken person as well, frequently feeling betrayed, abandoned, frustrated.

If you stay for a while, you may feel that here it is quite nice.

It is a good place, it may help.

Thanks Stuart I honestly can’t fix it. It’s gone. It’s gone. Nothing can fix it. I spent 21yrs trying to get well and have confidence and do everything that the doctors and nurses and ex said but it was all harm. Medications harmed me and now life’s gone. I can stand in a shop and be polite as I should but it makes no difference to the real problem. It’s just a person standing with thier sole ripped apart and life destroyed standing there talking to someone who hates you for nothing. Everyone hates me for nothing. I was a hermit in a flat and pretending to be fine on the small times I went outside. I was pretending to be fine. I was medicated for years and that made everything worse. I went through twice  in 20yrs and all I wanted was to have a relationship and a child but the NHS staff and doctors and ex partner got me medicated instead. I didnt mind if I had a short relationship with someone or a long relationship. I wanted to at least try to have a bit of life. I wanted to eventually have a child. I’m 40 and the stole that away from me. I had the chance  to start 9 years ago. Instead my ex destroyed me because I wanted to leave being friends with him and he knew that and he didn’t want me to leave. He did it for 22years. I hate the NHS.  People hate me and sneer at me and I have had people following me around and everyday I don’t want to be on this planet. I’ve started drinking alcohol and I don’t know if I will continue doing that. I have no friends. No life. I exist and I have to pretend I’m fine. I hate mediations as the poisoned me so I could have a child. I will never forgive the NHS and my ex. I didn’t have a relationship with him for 21years but he was there everyday making me seeing MH and get medicated and sedated ,mainly in a room like a hermit on antipsychotics and polypharmacy for wanting to have confidence and leave and try to have a relationship elsewhere. 
thanks Stuart. 
take care.

I don't think that's true.

Maybe you can't fix the past, but you can fix the future.

Thank you Stuart so much. I remember every good person that has helped and I know you tried so much with the few replies you gave. Thank you so much. It means so much. Just having good people in the world like you makes the world go round better than you realise. Thank you and best wishes. 
I’ve already sent the email for deletion. 
keep going strong Stuart. 
take care.

Thank you. The answers dont matter tbh. Everything is gone. It was gone 21yrs ago. Nothing could ever fix it. I tried and tried. All the best.

If you're sure that's what you want.

But it doesn't matter what label you have, you can still talk to people.

Good luck.

you too Ava 

Best wishes, Ava. I hope you find the answers you’re looking for.

Thanks phased. I’ve sent the email to delete my account. Take care and thank you.

Hi Ava this link has an answer to your question National Autistic Society - Our Community All the best.