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Best wishes, Ava. I hope you find the answers you’re looking for.

Thank you. The answers dont matter tbh. Everything is gone. It was gone 21yrs ago. Nothing could ever fix it. I tried and tried. All the best.

I don't think that's true.

Maybe you can't fix the past, but you can fix the future.

Be aware that alcohol feels good at the time and raises your mood, but the next afternoon, of even a day and a half later, lowers your mood.

I used AI to help me track my mood swings and oscillations. Once you realise this is happening it can help.

Hi Ava

I am a broken person as well, frequently feeling betrayed, abandoned, frustrated.

If you stay for a while, you may feel that here it is quite nice.

It is a good place, it may help.

Thanks Stuart I honestly can’t fix it. It’s gone. It’s gone. Nothing can fix it. I spent 21yrs trying to get well and have confidence and do everything that the doctors and nurses and ex said but it was all harm. Medications harmed me and now life’s gone. I can stand in a shop and be polite as I should but it makes no difference to the real problem. It’s just a person standing with thier sole ripped apart and life destroyed standing there talking to someone who hates you for nothing. Everyone hates me for nothing. I was a hermit in a flat and pretending to be fine on the small times I went outside. I was pretending to be fine. I was medicated for years and that made everything worse. I went through twice  in 20yrs and all I wanted was to have a relationship and a child but the NHS staff and doctors and ex partner got me medicated instead. I didnt mind if I had a short relationship with someone or a long relationship. I wanted to at least try to have a bit of life. I wanted to eventually have a child. I’m 40 and the stole that away from me. I had the chance  to start 9 years ago. Instead my ex destroyed me because I wanted to leave being friends with him and he knew that and he didn’t want me to leave. He did it for 22years. I hate the NHS.  People hate me and sneer at me and I have had people following me around and everyday I don’t want to be on this planet. I’ve started drinking alcohol and I don’t know if I will continue doing that. I have no friends. No life. I exist and I have to pretend I’m fine. I hate mediations as the poisoned me so I could have a child. I will never forgive the NHS and my ex. I didn’t have a relationship with him for 21years but he was there everyday making me seeing MH and get medicated and sedated ,mainly in a room like a hermit on antipsychotics and polypharmacy for wanting to have confidence and leave and try to have a relationship elsewhere. 
thanks Stuart. 
take care.

Thanks Stuart I honestly can’t fix it. It’s gone. It’s gone. Nothing can fix it. I spent 21yrs trying to get well and have confidence and do everything that the doctors and nurses and ex said but it was all harm. Medications harmed me and now life’s gone. I can stand in a shop and be polite as I should but it makes no difference to the real problem. It’s just a person standing with thier sole ripped apart and life destroyed standing there talking to someone who hates you for nothing. Everyone hates me for nothing. I was a hermit in a flat and pretending to be fine on the small times I went outside. I was pretending to be fine. I was medicated for years and that made everything worse. I went through twice  in 20yrs and all I wanted was to have a relationship and a child but the NHS staff and doctors and ex partner got me medicated instead. I didnt mind if I had a short relationship with someone or a long relationship. I wanted to at least try to have a bit of life. I wanted to eventually have a child. I’m 40 and the stole that away from me. I had the chance  to start 9 years ago. Instead my ex destroyed me because I wanted to leave being friends with him and he knew that and he didn’t want me to leave. He did it for 22years. I hate the NHS.  People hate me and sneer at me and I have had people following me around and everyday I don’t want to be on this planet. I’ve started drinking alcohol and I don’t know if I will continue doing that. I have no friends. No life. I exist and I have to pretend I’m fine. I hate mediations as the poisoned me so I could have a child. I will never forgive the NHS and my ex. I didn’t have a relationship with him for 21years but he was there everyday making me seeing MH and get medicated and sedated ,mainly in a room like a hermit on antipsychotics and polypharmacy for wanting to have confidence and leave and try to have a relationship elsewhere. 
thanks Stuart. 
take care.

Be aware that alcohol feels good at the time and raises your mood, but the next afternoon, of even a day and a half later, lowers your mood.

I used AI to help me track my mood swings and oscillations. Once you realise this is happening it can help.

Hi Ava

I am a broken person as well, frequently feeling betrayed, abandoned, frustrated.

If you stay for a while, you may feel that here it is quite nice.

It is a good place, it may help.