Just curious as to whether other peoples tolerances to stress have improved as they’ve gotten older, or got worse. I feel mines got worse. I’m also a lot less tolerant with things. Simple things seem to stress me out more than when I was younger. What’s everyone’s else’s experience with stress tolerance?
For me my stress and anxiety levels have ‘ebbed and flowed’ throughout my life - but definitely got worse when i got to the perimenopause/menopause age. From your name I'm guessing that you are male - so thats probably not very useful information for male autistic people! But i think it’s a common experience for women when they get older. I was hugely strugglng but its really improved now - and for me what helped was studying Zen Buddhism (for a couple of years now) and that taught me how to live more in the moment and not ruminate so much on the past or worry so much about the future. Ive got a lot of ‘tools’ now to help me change my perspective regarding all aspects of life in ways that reduce stress a lot. Practicing mindfulness, not looking ahead so much or feeling sad and resentful about the past, practicing ‘letting go’, non-attachment, understanding ‘inter-being’ - these are all things that have helped me to get a lot more distance from the things that used to stress me out so much. I’m less reactive now - so if something starts to wind me up I have greater awareness of that process and therefor a bit more distance, and a bit more distance allows me to be less overwhelmed and recover more quickly if I’m feeling overwhelmed etc. I learnt these things (online) from a very well respected Zen Master called Thich Nhat Hanh. It took time for me to learn and absorb these different thinking ‘habits’ but it’s unquestionably helped me a lot. Being human inevitably involves some stress and anxiety - and over the years I tried all sorts of things to help as my life was often completely miserable because I felt so overwhelmed much of the time - but this is the only thing that’s made a significant and long lasting difference to me. They have a YouTube channel called ‘Plum Village’ if anyone is interested.
I am very familiar with Thich Nhat Hanh, I used to be into the whole Buddhism thing too. I first got into Buddhism and stuff from doing mindfulness in DBT a long time ago. For a long time people knew I had mental health problems, self harm was almost like my identity (I know that sounds nuts). I was that kinda person. Then I started getting into mindfulness through DBT and I decided I wanted to be that “chilled” person, the one who doesn’t get phased by anything. I came off all my medication, and to others I was seemingly doing well…when I moved up north, it was the perfect opportunity to carve out a new identity so to speak…ultimately though, I wasn’t being mindful, I was just absorbing everything and not dealing with it, being angry was seen to a weakness, I couldn’t let anybody see me being emotionally frustrated, upset, anxious or anything. I became very good at hiding how I felt. in the end though, bit by bit the cracks started showing and I ultimately ended up worse. That led me down the path of more mental health therapy and then discovering I had autism. Allowing myself just to be me though is quite a relief. I don’t have to put on act anymore. If I look anxious or am overwhelmed, I don’t really care. Let them think what they want. I did try to access DBT again as I thought it might helpful to revisit, and do it the proper way, not the way I did it, unfortunately though because I’m under the autism service I can’t access it.
Thanks for sharing that Geeky Gothic Guy .
I feel interested by your response.
This is because your description of using meditative practice as some sort of armour that might deflect things getting in but instead "kettles" you inside it is something I have experience of too.
It is perhaps using one's mind but not being "mindfull"?
In my case my background was through martial arts into meditation and I learnt that I could use my mind drive my body somewhat like a robot without regard for the costs and yep that can kettle things big time!
Without the surcease of sanctuary in good "spirituall" support (blimey did I really type that - what an old hippy I might seem!) or a damn good retreat every now and then, well, the balance of (especially emotional) accounts can run into the negative. Buddhism is perhaps as much a culture as it is a religion and to get the full benefit of it one might need to be deeper immersed than most of either can manage or indeed might wish to be.
I think that it is a good idea to be yourself as after all who else can you be?
I reckon that if nothing else meditation may have helped you realise that. :-)
It's just such a sh1t to realise this when one is so damn unhappy! (oh yes me too... so damn often...)
perhaps co-incidentally I have been using the I-Ching tonight and it gave me this answer.
"This is the realm of the Shaman.
You have exhausted every alternative, spent yourself completely, taxed body and mind beyond your former limits.
Survival and salvation lie beyond your reach now.
Only transcendence to a new existence -- a higher plane of being -- will see you through.
The Old You is just a dry husk.
You can't return to it.
Metamorphosis is the only grace offered.
You can only return to your homeland as a New You."
All that mediatation and stuff... blimey... so... Buddhism teaches transcendence via meditation and ethical living as I understand it
Maybe another way is by harmonisng with oneself (and yes maybe that is most easy and most accustomed when feeling reall bad) and then finding some way of getting in with some good experiences along the way - (funny thing is they are often about we just don't realise they were there nor how to find them). That way we "become" someone different because of the experiences we participate in?
If this means "stepping out of oneself" to do it maybe start small and see how it goes?
That's my plan anyway.
Best Wishes
I'm pleased you've sussed all this Kate Kestrel
What truly leads to happiness et al?
Some suggest that life is like a sh1t sandwich - just depends on how much bread you have. No coincidence that bread is another word for money and it get concentrate in weird ways by capitalism.
I like a nice cup of tea! which reminds me...
I am also happy that you appreciate the watercourse way too :-)
Best wishes.
I'm pleased you've sussed all this Kate Kestrel
What truly leads to happiness et al?
Some suggest that life is like a sh1t sandwich - just depends on how much bread you have. No coincidence that bread is another word for money and it get concentrate in weird ways by capitalism.
I like a nice cup of tea! which reminds me...
I am also happy that you appreciate the watercourse way too :-)
Best wishes.
