What makes you feel autistic

Yes, very much this. And for some reason when the sun comes out, everyone starts playing music really loudly outside, forcing everyone to listen to it whether they like it or not.

Alright. I shall delete my account and never come back.

If you're going to take the piss I suggest you find a different place to post.

Another thing is bright lights and high pitch noise i find it difficult the deal with and I get really stressed and anxious if I have to go to new places and meet new people. Also i.get really anxious with speed cameras and always plot driving routes to avoid speed cameras. And I can be quite repetitive with things I do and say 

Obsessions can over take everything, Obsessions on interrests consume me and there are also Obsessions on things that have happened in the past and what people have done to you that really trigger you. These obsessions are really hard to let go and mentally draining, makes obsessions about traumatic things hard to forgive and forget, as my mind doesn't stop 

When i was a child I used to have imaginary friends and make up imaginary games. I had real friends but i could only bare being with them for a limited time, then I'd feel drained and isolated at home alone for weeks even months, then I'd reapear recharged. Since a child I feel like I've been at war with my mind its constantly spinning with everything. I make up things in my mind and stress about them. It's still the same now, I feel that the war with my mind is now getting harder and harder as I get older 

I get obsessed with interrests and become isolated from everyone, these obsessions can cost me a lot of money, the obsession does help me learn things quickly which helps with my job. Socially I'm disconnected from everyone besides my wife and dog, I only need one person in my life any more than that and it becomes overwhelming, It's difficult to sit in a room with different people while they talk so I don't do it. My anxiety and depression is bad and my sensory triggers are bad, which limits any social interactions, I dont like corners on cushions, pillows etc or people using there index finger this can cause me to self harm especially if I come in contact. I don't like being touched especially on my back, can cause self harm, or people walking close behind me. I don't like people trying 2 force conversation with me or talking at were i feel pinned in a corner, it causes me to panic and escape quickly, conversations with people are very limited and mentally draining, so I have to then find an isolated area to recharge. My wife occasionally says I'm being rude when I talk but I don't see it. My masking doesn't last long these days, the older I get the harder it gets, it's very tiring so I'm far less accommodating and more isolated. I love being on my own but I do like my wife and dog being around only. Socially i can shut down very quickly and I'm rubbish at small talk with people. I'd rather put some ear phones on and try and block everyone out my life especially in work. I dont like confrontation, crowded areas, I put doing things off a lot, I can be very demotivated and have a habit of correcting things what people say sometimes. Also I find it very difficult to rush about, it's creates confusion and extreme anxiety so everything is done at a specific pace and given good amount of time to get it done. If anyone new comes on the scene. Work or family I'm very stand offish from them, it can take me weeks before I talk to them 

I never 'feel' autistic because being autistic feels normal to me. 

I get hyper focused on my special interests to the point I'm in my own head more than out in the real world. It also means I don't find most people's conversation very interesting and generally can't connect with what people seem to talk about and find interesting. I mask but I can only maintain that for a few days around someone before it drains me and I end up back inside my own mind and outwardly seeming shut down. People then take offence or generally find me awkward to be around as I'm too quiet for them even though I am always polite. 

I struggle making any real connections with people except the odd neuro diverse person I may meet and then I tend to really connect and come alive around them. They get me and I get them. But that's pretty rare. 

Never been able to maintain a long term relationship or job. 

Enjoy my own company 90% of the time

Getting consumed by my hobbies and interests and having little interest in anything else. 

I love fiddling with the seems of my trousers between my fingers and thumb. Literally hours and hours doing it to the point it wears away the bottoms of my trousers and makes my hands ache. For some reason it's so satisfying. 

Very under stimulated by normal life. Having to do extreme things every month or so to recharge my batteries. Having little interest in what regular people seem to talk about and find interesting. Being totally inept at small talk. 

I keep my phone on silent as I hate things beeping at me and people bothering me when I'm not prepared. 

Hating public transport and crowded places. 

Till I was about 13 I would always imagine myself as someone else and never actually myself. One week I'd imagine I was Pater Venkman, the next Starscream etc. it wasn't just playing. It was every second of the day, every day, every week, every year till I was 13. 

Need 2 or 3 week time outs from people which makes it hard to form real bonds or work with other people. 

i didn’t know I am. I have just felt different to the other lot and unable to get on.It has caused me a lot of misery and upset.

Me too! 

I can easily relate to all those points 

I love a curve and everything round hate pointed corners 

Haha, it's what we do.

It really is, right? I was wondering if anyone would notice. 

I don't understand people who have loud phone conversations in public. I used to have a housemate who would talk loudly on his phone whenever I was on the phone to my partner at the time. She said she could hear him clearer than me. Infuriating!

In my last job I used to dread working near schools. At break time all you could hear was little girls practicing their scream.

Validation like that would also have brought a lot of tears. I hope things get easier soon.

I love the curve you created with this list. Very pleasing.