Hi, I’m new. I’m a very high masking woman with ADHD, recently diagnosed after years of being told I was “unstable” and on the excruciating path to unmasking. Started stimming more, wearing compression vests, accommodating my copious sensory issues, etc, but I’ve found that while my depression and anxiety is at an all time low, my social skills have gone to hell. I can’t look people in the eye anymore, though I never had a problem before. I’ve been fucking up friendships in a way that I haven’t since I was in primary school.
Normally I’m one of the most socially adept people I know, but after screwing up every interaction for the past two weeks, I’m feeling down and alone. Has anybody else had this experience? I’m confused, since I can’t tell if this is psychosomatic or just the real me coming out to play for the first time in decades, and if it’s the latter, I feel like I should just crawl right back into the mask.
Glad to be here—any positive input would be much appreciated.