Today was my friends birthday and I was supposed to be over his tonight and it was just going to be the two of us. Earlier on he rings me and says his mate that I’m not comfortable around was going to be joining us and I just freaked out. My friend calmed me down and reassured me that things will be ok and he wanted the two of us there. I made my way up but it took me ages as I was so anxious in the end I managed to get to outside his flat door but I couldn’t go any further. My friend was trying to calm me down and kept reassuring me then his mate speaks and that was it the final straw I ran out of the building in tears. I feel awful his mates not a bad person but I couldn’t be in that social situation. After I had calmed down I phoned my friend to say I was going home and I would see him tomorrow instead just him. I apologised over the phone and his mate was really nice about it but I feel awful I’m not there now. All three of us are on the spectrum and with me I get scared meeting new people and I have to be in the right environment to be able to do that and tonight wasn’t that environment sadly.