Published on 12, July, 2020
Recently I'm coming to terms that I function better without friends or attachments, I have my own routines and rhythms that malfunction when things change too much too fast or when I try to change to appease people and ignore my introverted nature.
I'm not completely asocial, but I engage in the minimum contact required to keep things balanced.
I am considering telling my local activity coordinator next week that I want to stop looking for social groups and volunteering.
Maybe volunteering is a bit much because of the responsibility, but autism social groups could still be ok. Autistics are very all or nothing / black and white thinkers. But there are useful grey areas.
Don't even think about the social groups being about finding a partner or even friends, but maybe as just doing a bit of useful socialising and socialising practice, and even support.
Honestly I bit off more than I could chew and I end up letting others down even more than just saying no in the first place.