Published on 12, July, 2020
I'm recently diagnosed both adhd (in December) and autistic (3 weeks ago) and, while I can see my autistic traits as an adult, I really can't remember a huge amount in my childhood. I'm 49 so it's been a long time since I was even a teenager and my mum has been filling in a few things, but I really don't remember a lot. I remember social stuff, like only having a small group of friends and preferring to be in the library rather than out in a huge group, but I don't remember how anything made me feel. Like I don't remember any sensory issues or meltdowns or anything like that. My mum says I was quite an anxious kid and I would get upset about odd things, but I really don't remember any of it. Anyone else late diagnosed and understand this? It's really frustrating when I'm trying to piece everything together.
I HAVE LOTS OF MEMORIES FROM CHILDHOOD. (Am I shouting?) Falling in love. Getting drunk. Smoking. Riding bikes. Trespassing. Knock door run. Vandalism. Shoplifting. Hmn what else. Throwing rocks. Throwing flattened lager cans. Throwing sticks. (Uhm, seems like I liked throwing.) Throwing my parents Vinyls. I thought they were cool frisbees. Playing in the rain when it was throwing it down. Hiding in bushes when it was throwing it down. Running from adults. Catching buses. Getting into fights and gettin thrown down on the grass. etc etc I could go on and on...but I'll stop here.