Published on 12, July, 2020
Hi
in Mid may I had an assessment and this confirmed most things for me. It was a sort of release knowing why I was who I am.
However, of the people I have told. A couple have said they were not surprised One was supportive. From the rest just silence. This was thrown into sharp relief over the weekend after having some time with relatives Sat night my wife said I was high masking autistic.
From that point on hardly a word was said. If this was just once I would have past it off. But it isn’t it almost like nobody wants to acknowledge it. It’s bad enough having conversations with people at the best of times but when they clam up. It just makes life more awkward for them. I’m happy not talking particularly as I feel the assessment was a positive step in understanding who, why and what I am and the same for what I do.
Out of curiosity has anyone else had this experience.
I find the general lack of interest in autism to be frustrating, because my late diagnosis is a life-changing event and post-diagnosis grief is difficult to deal with (grief at the late realisation and what could have been different in my life, *not* grief because I'm autistic).
However, I have to sympathise with people, as they may not want to say anything that's incorrect and unintentionally offensive, so it's easier for them to stay silent about autism.