Published on 12, July, 2020
Even though it has, at points, been physically taxing to the point I've had no choice but to stop. Or not search at all because there's something else going on for whatever reason.
They also don't consider freelance contracts to be a "real job", so by that definition I haven't worked a day in my life over the last 9 years since leaving full time education.
I applied for a paid shadowing programme and was invited to a workshop. I didn't get it so it feels very much "back at square one" as it sounded like the perfect opportunity.
I've done so much cold emailing and applying to no avail - I know it becomes a full time job in itself. My aim is to spend the next week digging into contacts I have instead.
I feel for you because when I consider some of the things you have previously said about your parents, they don't seem as understanding as they could be.
You're doing your best, which is all you can do. It's just sad that your parents cannot seem to see that.
I try and explain that it's not like I've not been searching properly or anything, but it doesn't change anything.
Believe me, I'd rather be working, but if I do something I don't enjoy and dread going to, I won't even last long enough to get paid.