Struggling with Life

I’m not sure how to start this…but basically today I have felt really down. I am fed up of my weight, fed up of women problems, fed up with my dad and fed up trying to figure out my life.

A while ago I had a great opportunity to become an apprenticeship in Chester Zoo (my dream job), but since I have only passed my driving last November and only recently got my car I got anxious on the roads to Chester Zoo and back so I had to pull out of the opportunity.

i decided I could volunteer and went for a chat this Tuesday. They said they would contact me on the Wednesday via email or phone call and I haven’t heard anything. 

Now I just feel like I’m in limbo. I don’t know what I am good at, I can’t find any interesting jobs, I envy people who know what job they want. I’m finding this so hard and I don’t want to reach 35 and still be the same position SobSob 

I don’t know what to do and how to do SobSob