Published on 12, July, 2020
Hello Thinking my parents don't understand, that I had to sort out the house (when I eventually got it); depressing to see books, CDs and DVDs piled up. Also dust, mould and cracked plaster, things don't use or broken.
I get annoyed when more books, CDs or DVDs arrive in the post. Is that hoarding?
Keep on saying nasty things towards me e.g. I was fussing I was only explaining something.
In the past, they kept on saying no to me (when my town had vacancies. Excuses of not having enough hours, not wanting to cut cheese/meat, carrying a sack of potatoes rest of my life); forced me to go to a job fair in 2021, told me to apply at the chemist as thought I would be good at it and post office ( told my parents need experience in there IT SYSTEM. Reply was it doesn't matter);
In 2022 relative had this daft idea to send me a cheque so I could do a hiking holiday or a residential training course. I'd declined. They haven't cottoned on that I do voluntary work with a group. Living in fantasy land.
The other day my parents asked me do I enjoy going to my voluntary work group (had to tread carefully as though it was this small talk or something else);
I had an idea to have a little stall outside, to sell some things and said no to me. The excuse was that people sell things online. Duh! I'm trying to prevent myself from going on benefits in a few years. Plus I'd noticed that they're forgetting things. I suggested I ought to have a support worker, parents said no I don't need one as my scatty friend has one.
In the past, they kept on finding people who didn't listen to me. Made up stories saying my former work only took me on, so they could have a bonus and I don't want to hang clothes rest of my life (was more than that); I don't talk about what happened as it's trauma and did everything I could to get through to them. Nasty people.
In 2023 there were rare pension contributions buying years top up and the same relative sent a cheque for the top up. I felt sick doing this.
Is it worth making a GP appointment? They are difficult to get. Just need someone to get through to them. A local charity could help me.
In my town, you have to keep things private.
I just had enough of this and wanted to escape.
Sorry to rant
I'll answer a few questions you ask here:
Zengarden said:I get annoyed when more books, CDs or DVDs arrive in the post. Is that hoarding?
If you ordered them and they end up stacked up gathering dust then it is a possibility.
I'm afraid it isn't clear from what you describe.
Zengarden said:and post office ( told my parents need experience in there IT SYSTEM. Reply was it doesn't matter);
Any company would train you up on their IT systems when you start - there is so much variation from company to company that it is standard practice.
Zengarden said:I had an idea to have a little stall outside, to sell some things and said no to me. The excuse was that people sell things online
Selling on eBay does get your goods seen by a much, much larger number of people than a stall in the street to be fair.
Setting up an eBay account does not take much more effort than a NAS one (there are a few more steps about payment stuff admittedly) and I tend to mostly copy other listings and add my own photos when selling stuff.
CDs and DVDs are very low value items these days as everything is more or less online so it is unlikely to pay well.
I get the wanting to escape - it can get too much at times and sometimes all the time.
I find a long walk to clear my head and out things in perspective helps.
Thanks, Clare for the information.
This community is supportive and not alone. Already in touch with CALM and Samaritans.
Hi Zengarden,
It sounds like you are struggling to feel understood. I hope that this community provides a supportive environment for you.
If you feel that you might need some support with your mental health, you can find advice and information on how to go about seeking help, including links to other resources and details of helplines and listening support services, here: https://www.autism.org.uk/advice-and-guidance/topics/mental-health/seeking-help.
As you have suggested, it may be worth speaking to your GP as they will know the kind of support that is available in your area. You may also find it helpful to look for local support services in your area on our Autism Service DIrectory https://www.autism.org.uk/autism-services-directory
Kind regards,
Clare Mod