I feel like not fully grown up/mature

Alien0n3arth said:

many other sounds that usually don’t make me feel disregulated today made me crazy and crying

Yes, this is me when I am tired or stressed or more depressed than usual. Every little thing seems to niggle at first and then it all builds and suddenly I am crying.

I once had a lovely morning with a friend in London but I had to catch the train back to Scotland after we had lunch. Unfortunately the tube to get to the station was inexplicably delayed and I was sitting there getting more and more agitated. It eventually got to the stop near the station with about five minutes before my train left, and I had a big case to drag, and I was running to make sure I didn't miss it, and I got onto the concourse just to see my train marked on the board as having left.

I managed to find the information desk and explain the situation to the chap there, he was very patient and eventually got me even in my agitated state to understand that as I had booked a ticket, I could still get the next train, I'd just have to wait an hour.

After that, I was so overwhelmed with everything that had happened that even though I knew that everything was going to be alright, I had to find a quieter spot to sit by the wall (it was very busy and no seats available) and I was just sobbing my heart out. People were stopping and asking me if I was ok, and I had to tell them everything was fine, I had just missed my train.

I had no idea I was autistic at that point, I just thought I was overly sensitive and couldn't cope.

Travel is one of the worst things for me. Where we are subject to delays and cancellations out of our control. I've spent ridiculous amounts of money on an Uber in one situation. Nothing gives me the fear as much as the phrase "replacement bus service". I wish our transport system was as reliable as Japan. I've avoided big swathes of nice things due to fear of transport. I can't do it without my wife. Though I am like the alcoholic hiding the bottle in that I am not totally open about how much I fear it.

My brother, his girlfriend and myself once went to Glasgow on the train to see my cousin and it was a nightmare! Our first mistake was forgetting the horse racing was on, so the train was full of fancily dressed people who had been drinking, and there was rubbish all over the seats. Then two stops in, we had to get out and change from the diesel train to the electric train, and then once we got to Glasgow, the arrivals and departures info for the low-level trains are no longer on the main concourse so we had to find where they were. Then about ten minutes into our twenty minute journey on the low level train, it inexplicably came to a halt in between stations. 

We were getting late for our dinner at this point so also trying to phone and let them know what we wanted so they could order food  for us, and the driver came over on the speaker to say that there was a trespasser on the line and the police were trying to apprehend them.

After about 40 minutes, they announced that we would be returning to the previous station and we would have to find alternative transport.

So we got an Uber from there, eventually.

Found out later that someone had pushed a woman onto the train tracks and then taken off when chased. So we all kinda felt bad about complaining of the delay.

But all of us felt it was so stressful that we would just drive and stay overnight next time rather than public transport.

My brother, his girlfriend and myself once went to Glasgow on the train to see my cousin and it was a nightmare! Our first mistake was forgetting the horse racing was on, so the train was full of fancily dressed people who had been drinking, and there was rubbish all over the seats. Then two stops in, we had to get out and change from the diesel train to the electric train, and then once we got to Glasgow, the arrivals and departures info for the low-level trains are no longer on the main concourse so we had to find where they were. Then about ten minutes into our twenty minute journey on the low level train, it inexplicably came to a halt in between stations. 

We were getting late for our dinner at this point so also trying to phone and let them know what we wanted so they could order food  for us, and the driver came over on the speaker to say that there was a trespasser on the line and the police were trying to apprehend them.

After about 40 minutes, they announced that we would be returning to the previous station and we would have to find alternative transport.

So we got an Uber from there, eventually.

Found out later that someone had pushed a woman onto the train tracks and then taken off when chased. So we all kinda felt bad about complaining of the delay.

But all of us felt it was so stressful that we would just drive and stay overnight next time rather than public transport.

Some people can be horrible. I can never understand behaviour like this. 

Yes thank you, we had a good time at my cousin's house. The man was eventually arrested and the woman was taken to hospital but found to have no significant injuries, thankfully.

Wow, that’s a lot of unfortunate things that happened before your destination was reached. Did you make it there ok and did you enjoy your time there? Did you ever find out if the women was ok? Hope so. 

It’s strange how when things go wrong sometimes they really go wrong.