Published on 12, July, 2020
Being separate, other, misunderstood, invisible. How can you bear it?
I haven't found any kind of peace. Just pain and suffering. I struggle with this in a big way.
It is rough. I finally worked out that I am autistic (confirmed my suspicions) a year ago. I has led me down a path of self-discovery .... and what I have discovered is not good. C-PTSD and alexithymia from a childhood of emotional neglect and abuse. I am unable to feel happy (never have - i thought that was normal). I am doing therapy, but f is it rough.I hope you are finding ways to try and improve things for yourself.