I need help and there seemingly just isn't any that's suitable. I can call the Samaritans sometimes if my parents aren't in the living room, the only room with a phone. My mobile has been blocked because of the times I called. I'm lonely. I've tried going to pubs and bars and find the social rules incomprehensible. Social groups, I have panic attacks, because there always seems to be a hierarchy I don't understand and again incomprehensible social rules.