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Where's the off switch? There isn't one.

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One of the biggest difficulties I have is monotropic thoughts and when I'm feeling overloaded it's harder to deal with. It's absolutely useless thinking but I can't stop. I've noticed these thoughts offer a degree of certainty. Not about the situation itself but for my own head. As in, it knows what it's going to be thinking about.

What I've been faced with in the past is very unexpected change in direction and then my brain doesn't know what to do with itself. I've had slight experience of that recently which has been a welcome break but also left me feeling off.

I meditate every day. I take supplements. I accept the fact it's how my brain is. I allow it to wander freely where it wants to and understand "thoughts are just thoughts". It's not going to run out of steam of its own accord. I've faced the nature of these thoughts time and again through life. Now I know what's going on it doesn't help except I feel less confused. Ive read other threads and know there's other people like this. I try to keep myself busy but other health matters impede on this. 

I'll probably delete this after I've posted it like I always do. There's nothing anyone can do I just needed to get it off my chest.

  • in reply to NAS73180
    NAS73180 said:
    Am I wrong in speculating that they are some part of a primitive but useful, life-maintaining response system?

    I have no idea on that one! I think life-maintaining response system could be more "fight, flight, freeze".

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    Unknown said:
    On reflection, Ive learned from the above how much feeling overloaded can have an effect on processing.

    I've noticed how when I'm overloaded I can hardly process anything. If there's something big going on then my whole mind is occupied, unable to focus on anything else, including eating and drinking. The more intently I focus on something the louder inside my mind gets, there's no volume button just LOUD - great way of imagining this by the way.

    Meditation is something I've tried doing as well and it can help, not always, but usually it will bring me back down and allow me to breathe and settle.

    Unknown said:
    I see you are new. Welcome!

    Thank you!

  • Interesting to hear that they are called ‘monotropic’.

    I like your post: it articulated my situation also.  There’s no point in fighting these because they are more powerful than my attempt to stop them.  Am I wrong in speculating that they are some part of a primitive but useful, life-maintaining response system? 

  • in reply to Deleted User
    Unknown said:
    When I was confused about myself and my intent

    It's this bit. I understand now, where it comes from...it's automatic. It doesnt make me a bad person like I was led to believe. Just autistic!

  • in reply to Luna

    On reflection, Ive learned from the above how much feeling overloaded can have an effect on processing. I might chalk the sbove up as another 'warning sign' of approaching burnout.

    Meditation has had a positive effect and 'results' speak for themselves. I'm not preaching about it as it's up to people what they choose to do but I think it's one of the single best things anyone can do regardless of their brain wiring. Our brains have plasticity. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m8rRzTtP7Tc

    It isn't a miracle cure... it is often still struggle.....sometimes we have to roll with it and take the rough with the smooth.

    Luna said:
    Generally there's so much going on in my head it's like being in a busy supermarket and can't hear myself think, or make sense of anything that's going on.

    I like this. I think it can also come down having difficulty prioritising thoughts. Everything shouts in my head at the same volume - LOUD. 

    I see you are new. Welcome!

  • I'm glad you made this post. I relate to this a lot. My thoughts are all over the place, always seem to be racing and give me little peace. My brain seems to have a mind of its own, does what it wants when it wants.

    Generally there's so much going on in my head it's like being in a busy supermarket and can't hear myself think, or make sense of anything that's going on.

    I hope your meditation is helping, even if it's only a small help. I hope you feel better after writing the above, sometimes I find writing out stuff can help get a lot off my chest.

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    Unknown said:
    Much happier now.  Much better able to cope.  Much, much happier............and  c  a   l  m

    Glad to hear it. Me too....most of the time!

  • Unknown said:
    Now I know what's going on it doesn't help except I feel less confused.

    Well, fwiw, I think it helps me MASSIVELY to feel less confused.

    When I was confused about myself and my intent and my motivations, I was scared that I was either a) mad b) sad c) bad.

    It turns out......I'm d) autistic.

    Much happier now.  Much better able to cope.  Much, much happier............and  c  a   l  m .