Persecution complex

I think it was something I experienced more acutely as a child. As an adult, it's not so much people that I think are out to get me, but I do occasionally feel like the system is out to get me when I feel that I'm not being heard and taken seriously.

As I've got older, I have found myself worrying less about what people may think of me. Sometimes I might think that a person or a group of people hate me and are out to get me. Maybe I'm right, and maybe I'm not and it's just in my head. If I know that I haven't intentionally done anything to cause people to hate me, then I try not to dwell on such thoughts.

When I moved to my current home during my late twenties, I had an elderly next-door neighbour with a dog. There was an occasion when she had gone on holiday for a week and had arranged for someone to visit daily and tend to the dog. That poor dog spent the entire week whining, as it was clearly missing my neighbour. As a window had been left open, everyone walking past my neighbour's house could hear the whining, resulting in someone calling the RSPCA because they were understandably concerned. After the neighbour returned from her holiday, I had one of her granddaughters pounding on my door, demanding to know if it was me who had contacted the RSPCA. It should be noted that the granddaughter hadn't visited any of the other neighbours. After that, it was as though my neighbour and her family started to turn against me.

On another occasion, I'd had a friend visiting, who thought I had a gas leak. Having called someone out, it was then suspected that it was my elderly neighbour who had got a gas leak. This resulted in a detector probe being put through her letterbox, which sent the readings off the scale. The gas people needed to gain access to her home, but because it was late and my neighbour had gone to bed, the fear was that if they started banging on her door, the first thing my neighbour would do would be to turn on her lights, potentially resulting in an explosion. As my neighbour's daughter lived in the next street, and I knew she had a spare key, I called round to make her aware of the situation. Thankfully, there was no gas leak, and it came to light that my elderly neighbour's son had been pouring a load of oil-based paint down her toilet. As we shared the main soil pipe, the paint fumes had wafted into my house via my downstairs toilet.

After the suspected gas leak, I really did feel as though my neighbour and her family were holding me personally responsible for what had happened. Whenever they saw me and my son, we would be subjected to deathly stares, or else they would look at us in a way that suggested we were completely insane. When the family visited, they would park in front of my drive. Was it deliberate, or was it just thoughtlessness on their part? As I don't drive, then maybe it hadn't occurred to them that someone might visit me who needed to park on my drive.

The point I'm making is that if I'd allowed myself to dwell on what I truly believed that neighbour and her family thought of me (and my son), then my persecution complex could have quite easily become a major issue.

i feel like every room that i walk into, i am the odd one out and everyone knows it. ive only ever met one person who i can sort of confidently say likes me, everyone else i think i just annoy them

Well are people out to get us? A soft-conspiracy that works indirectly through mutual-interest is still a conspiracy, people won’t have be formally sitting around a table to conspire against things that are not in their interest.

If you are one that indirectly or directly works against the common interest, then you are likely to be persecuted, what is one to do but lament on the complexity of an issue without solution?

As for what helps it is best not lose yourself to grief, as you mourn routes not taken, instead appreciate the little things. If big things are on the cards for you, then your courses are likely to intercept naturally, which will be nice but not necessary to bolster your self-esteem. Your happiness is in your head; your environment is not.

Yeah, that is what happens sometimes. It's not always just a person's imagination that this kind of persecution is happening to them. There are certain people that are disliked for their lack of social skills, it's not only what you say, but how you say it, and when you say it.

Sometimes I want to be introverted and just say nothing to no one at work, and just sit in a corner alone, but I know they'll start dislking me since that's what always happens,  so I make the effort to greet everyone and make small talk with them and smile and laugh with them, even if it's socially draining and meaningless in my mind to talk about trivial matters, but the social engagement builds their trust, and it just makes them treat me positively rather than negatively, and I have less stress during my day. 

thats how management office at work treats me lol
i only asked for a flexible working form one time and all of them immediately gave me a evil disgusted look as if i took a dump in their cereal. anyone else can get flexible working though. everyone else gets offered change arounds and positions.

I knew someone where once they walked into a room, everyone in that room just stared negatively at them, gave them cut eyes, and hated on them. It was like the entire world instantly went hostile towards them, and that was their reality. They have a view that people were out to get them, because people do treat them differently. I mean, when I walk around by myself, no one does this kind of thing, and I'm just a background character, people are just going about their normal lives, and it's nice and peaceful. But when they walk around, everyone gives them weird looks and cut eyes, and negative stares, and they're just treated like a criminal no matter where they go. I'm sure it has something to do with them looking suspicious or angry or something. But if I didn't see it with my own eyes for years, I wouldn't have believed it. 

yeah, thats usually because its true though. people are dicks.

perhaps a therapist?

It's ingrained in us, and enforced by schools and authorities.

Kids are now preparing for War, rather than Work.