ESA actually listened... So what now?

Max has left the platform (them/they) said:

It's the same stuff I've been telling pip for years and they kept saying "because you're employed you can't have these difficulties" . Well I was fired on health grounds in February , according to the dismissal letter I'm" not managing my autism diagnosis well

Lucky you.

I was fired from a job because of my 'difficulties' which were spelled out in detail in my dismissal letter, yet my pip application ignored everything and gave me zero points.  

I do not understand what's wrong with pip assessors. Literally the only difference between the applications was I finally admitted to how violent and frequent my meltdowns are and have always been. I didn't admit it before because I was afraid of being sectioned they are that bad.  My letter made it clear it was all my problem, as soon as I suspected autism I told them and they put me on performance review for communication issues. I've got a reconsideration in with pip now. I'm hoping the ESA result will swing in my favour. 

Max has left the platform (them/they) said:

I finally admitted to how violent and frequent my meltdowns are and have always been. I didn't admit it before because I was afraid of being sectioned they are that bad. 

This reminds me of a time a few years ago, where a local mental health charity asked me to fill out an online mental health questionnaire to see if I qualified for their help.  After I completed the questionnaire, their conclusion was that I was beyond the type of help they were offering and I should seek professional help.

Max has left the platform (them/they) said:

I finally admitted to how violent and frequent my meltdowns are and have always been. I didn't admit it before because I was afraid of being sectioned they are that bad. 

This reminds me of a time a few years ago, where a local mental health charity asked me to fill out an online mental health questionnaire to see if I qualified for their help.  After I completed the questionnaire, their conclusion was that I was beyond the type of help they were offering and I should seek professional help.

I've had every mental health support service say that too be for 25 years. I  could see through all the strategies that were supposed to help anxiety/depression. the strategies never worked because it was always sensory/dysregulation not anxiety and depression. They refused to consider autism despite my asking, because I have female biology. I've got letters saying I'm "too complex" for therapy based services, but community support won't accept me because I can't meet them in the nearest town due to my difficulties. 

Now, because I went right to choose after being on the NHS list for 5 years, they won't support me because they didn't diagnose. Even EMDR wouldn't offer accomodations for sessions so after the 5th apt of me having a meltdown about going in they discharged me. Hence why I'm so amazed ESA actually listened. No-one has before.