Published on 12, July, 2020
My life is falling apart. I am a delusional, broken failure.
A lot of struggle and failing which also led to a lot of self loathing and hatred.
Single most of my life, just been made redundant and the whole unmasking (AuDHD) at 45 isn't any fun.
I have friends, which tbh, makes the whole ending it even harder. But they will leave me / forget me soon enough. I just need to deactivate my FB account and just stop socialising.
Life sucks so much and it is unfair.
I am apparently very intelligent, but that doesn't' help. Some say I am pretty, but that doesn't help either.
Life is especially hard in these times we are in, and complicated. You are right, it is unfair, very unfair. Life does suck and is a constant struggle especially being incompatible with the world out there. I totally understand your pain. Feeling trapped in the wrong circumstances is one of the worst things, it feels like you are suffocating, it's the same for me. I have self-loathing every day and am screaming inside much of the time.
You have reached out to us, please don't do anything hasty, we are here for you.
I agree, I'm in a similar state/position too.