Published on 12, July, 2020
Most of my life i have never been able to recognise when someone likes me, be it male or female, frienship or romanticly. As i have got older i do recognise this better. Also, i never gave marriage a thought. I just didnt think it applied to me. It was never something i considered.
I also didnt know that i was good at anything. I have always given 150%. This of course has been exhausting. If i couldnt do it well, then i wouldnt want to do it.
Only in recent years have i recognised these traits. Nothing has changed, except i understand myself better.
Are these typical traits for autistic people? X
Yes, they are typical, all of them, you're not alone Tulip. And lots of auts are perfectionists.
And anyway, you sound like a lovely person to me
Hehe thank you
It certainly does explain why i have felt 'different'. Not in a bad way though. Its just been hard not knowing why.
Why do you think we are petfectionists? Possibly OCD?
I wonder whether it starts with school? You spend a long time there and are constantly asked to get things right and it sticks more than it should? I wonder if we all grew up in the wilderness with no pressure if we'd have the same compulsion...
I think it was more childhood stuff at home with me. I did well academically, but struggled with getting things "right" at home, albeit for reasons that probably didn't have much to do with autism.
Yes, early life influences and experiences including parents, school and so on imo.