Irrational

I'm sorry about your accident but glad it helped you in a way, hope that comes out right?

Work environments can be so toxic sometimes. When I was at Morrisons it was toxic then too.

Now I'm not there I feel like I can breathe again.

Best of luck with your new job I hope it goes well and you enjoy it.

Yep, I've been at home for 6 years. 

My last job was toxic, it took a serious toll on my health but I couldn't see a way out. Fortunately I was involved in an accident just before Christmas which effectively ended my employment in the end. It probably saved my life. 

Now I'm about to start a new job, which I hope will be ok. Time will tell. 

XD

Neither could I..

I remember thinking that very thing, in the bathrooms whilst having my two-hourly alloted panic-attack, as the lighting was timered to 5-minutes..

There's not many autism friendly jobs. Not that I've found anyway.

I think working from home would be ideal for most if possible.

Can't even imagine how hard that must have been.

I've worked as a checkout assistant at Morrisons and just making small talk with people was hard enough but doing calls all day every day...

I couldn't do that.

I bet they are. 

It sounds like a difficult, stressful job. You do what you have to, I've had some terrible jobs myself.

Yeah.. I wouldn’t do anything, even 10% similar, like that again..

It’s great if you enjoy having a conversational heart-rate of 180bpm..

That’s to say that you enjoy feeling your heart-rate in your eyeballs..

Wow you should get a medal for even doing that.

Hands down I couldn't do that job I think the stress of it would cause me a heart attack.

OMG.

That's awful I'm so sorry you went through that. 

I can see why people carry their phones with them all the time when out in case things like that happen but I'm like you I never take my phone anywhere with me.

I used to hate long bus journey in case I had a coughing-fit and had to walk home..

I always have specialty lozenges now..

One fear I know is irrational but I keep feeling it, is, when I'm on a long bus journey, I feel terrified that I will get thrown off the bus and I keep calculating how long it will take me to walk home.  There's no reason why the bus will kick me off, I have a valid ticket and I'm not behaving in any anti social manner.  But I'm afraid the bus will chuck me off.

Yeah I was terrified to answer every one of them, it didn’t help that it is was a debt-collector enquiry-line and I was the debt-collector, everybody is real-chipper on those calls..

That's so many! 

I will never make that many calls in my lifetime and would be too scared to work in a call centre - I'm in awe! 

T said:

It's hard because most of my fears don't seem irrational.

You hit the nail on the head.  Our real fears seem irrational to others, not to us.

12000 in total.. actually that’s how many cases I handled.. it was probably more like 4500

Sorry you've had to go through that. It isn't pleasant

It was crazy. I broke my leg walking my dog through the woods. It was literally the middle of nowhere so it took a while before anyone found me. I was there' for hours. My dog came and went, chasing squirrels, oblivious to my distress. Then it started raining. 

Eventually, after being found and having to speak on the phone an ambulance was sent, but as it was the middle of nowhere they couldn't find me and then when they did they couldn't get me out. So a second, mountain rescue ambulance was called with special equipment to get me out. 

Perhaps if I'd had my own phone with me all this would have taken less time, but I tend not to carry it in case I have to speak on the phone! 

 Did you have to call people? 

My brain sort of stops when I hear adults use infant terms. I think it's a moments pause where it tries to make sense of it lol.

Pegg said:

hey ask a lot of questions and that's hard at the best of times. 

That's the hardest part I think. You're already in a state and then there's the added pressure of actually talking on the phone.

Overwhelmed in a few seconds before you know it.

Sorry you've had to go through that. It isn't pleasant.