Obsessions with people

This is normal - it's an aspect of feeling everything with a deeper intensity than our NT peers. So, it's worth noting most others don't have this same response. 

Autistics and ADHD'rs *tend to feel with a greater intensity / vulnerability due to a different way of sense-perceiving the world as "too real" (as one theory states). I prefer to say it from our perspective, we don't dull our senses the same. So external and internal sensations can be powerful to overwhelming.

There's an advantage to this, such as learning to craft a sensation like taste or smell in order to discern differences - like understanding wine. But identifying feelings which aren't as easy to contain or command, since they can't just be popped into a jar in a controlled setting. Relating with others also has a great deal of unspoken rules in order to build healthy connexions. Learning to respect and create boundaries is important and sometimes this is quite difficult when we're naturally impacted to such an intensity. 

So while how we're impacted isn't something we can necessarily control, what we decide to do or how we decide to act - is. This is partly where being conscientious about having boundaries with others matters, and in situations like this, knowing where friendship becomes a more intimate connexion seems important. I always find respecting an underlying principle useful in situations like these which then makes it a little more simple to know if I'm crossing a line by how I respond - or intentionally don't - as a matter of respect :) 

ive never had anything beyond friend though... infact i dont think the things i call friends are actually friends but are more so just acquaintances.

which must have a effect considering i get weirdly depressive to the point of wanting to hug my boxing bag or curl up in a self hugging way sadly. i dunno. maybe we naturally have a need for someone close to use to physically comfort us and if you cant get it your body goes crazy and depressive and tries to fill the gap somehow. 

no one will ever go beyond friend with me though.. or acquaintance if thats all they really are lol its too alien to imagine it. but then again owning my own home and having a job was also too alien to imagine but i have those things now so i dunno anythings possible. anyone farther than a friend though seems impossible, im too weird. i dont even socialise or speak enough to form a propper communicative friendship which is why everyones likely always just a acquaintance. 

i dunno.... with people its confusing. in some parts i wanna be left entirely alone and be isolated and secluded in my own private place... but then on the other hand i get lonely and depressed and kinda crave other people. so its contradictory with me. in general though i do want to be everyone's friend by default and wont really hate them unless they really make out that they dont like me and friendship is off the table. but a friend of everyone is often a friend of no one as everyone seems to fall out and you being friends with both sides can often have both sides turn against you for being friends with the other. i cant really read people very well too so i dont know if they like me or if they dont anyway.

Not friends, but potential partners. I do it much less these days though. I think it’s partially because we want to know everything about them internally and externally.