Published on 12, July, 2020
Been on the waiting list for diagnosis for a while now and still processing a lot of my life.
I approached my mother and told her how I had always felt different and told her that I had finally worked out why I’m different. The autistic bomb wasn’t well received, I was told,”autistic people don’t talk and stare at the wall all day.” Since then I approached my GP and got referred, I asked my mother for old school reports, they couldn’t be found, my English Books were supplied to show how I’m totally normal. I started to read the first one today, my childhood was unusual, I am the eldest of 3 and my mother was often ‘sectioned,” I often had to deal with everyday life. The picture shows my wardrobe, my safe place, the picture on the wall is, “Home Sweet Home.” My father did his best but I think he was autistic, he just worked and couldn’t deal with home life, my pillow shows Pound signs across it and me being beaten for being different or unruly . My bedroom door didn’t have a door handle, it just had a bolt across it. The extracts are from my first year in Secondary School, the teacher asked for a poem that described me. The poem is by Lewis Carroll. Another page in my English book is me writing my Last Will and Testament, my teacher gave me a red tick, I’m still processing that.
Well, diagnosis is certainly possible without parental input. I wouldn't worry too much about that.
But oh wow! I'm hurting for you reading your English extracts there. And definately, your assessors need to see them.
Dawn said: I'm hurting for you reading your English extracts there.
Same here. It just highlights the complete lack of knowledge and understanding there was back then about autism.
Thank you, I’ve been processing autism since 2021, I still feel like a fraud but know I’m autistic, if that makes sense?
Im 55 and still walk on tiptoe without shoes,