Published on 12, July, 2020
It's not a low mood, or emotional anguish, it is literally just a resigned acceptance that everything happening is too much and there's only one course of action. Not an immediate need, just a it will happen when it does. I'm still doing things I enjoy. I've called it resigned acceptance, but really I don't know what this is. It's kinda like sitting in an armchair in a burning building and thinking "well at least it's warm."
I'm just thinking out loud, so to speak.
Acceptance is good, but also, none reactivity is a skill.
I feel like this is progress as an autist. So I tip my hat in your direction
Sitting in an armchair in a burning building and thinking at least its warm yes!. I absolutely understand this feeling.
For me, it's a better position than worry because you aren't trying to.change things you have no control over. More Stoic. I think Seneca said if you are a dog tied to a cart, you can either struggle and cause yourself more pain and discomfort, or just run along with the cart.
The challenge for me, is knowing when I really don't have a choice!
Thank you for your comments, it's ok
I agree. I meditate on 'stability' where I visualise embodying a mountain and having deep roots. As the world continues on around me I just breathe in and out and that's my focus.
Letting things wash over me in this way is so often a great way to progress through my day
Could it be a lighter, more dettached form of burnout?
I know you have said it's not a low mood, depression (I think it is anyway) is a bit like this with me, it brings a calmness, an inner stillness, I think it makes you surrender, a complete contrast to the anxiety.
I live in a constant flux between the two and definitely prefer the 'being' of depression, I think I may even be at a point now where I welcome it's arrival.
And I think I finally understand the relationship between the two and what mixed anxiety and depression means, I've never really understood it until recently.
Nobody will miss what you steal from the shared-fridge..
Well if you went outside sooner, you’d only be colder for longer, besides there’s opportunity to be had in an abandoned building.. silver-linings!
Maybe read a book by Tara Brach- it’s called “Radical acceptance”. it’s makes good advice on thought patterns.