Fowl mood due to upcoming social event

Well the event happened. Much like the Christmas one, I actually enjoyed it. Because I wasn't trying as hard. It was like i took a step back.

I sat on the end and was in an alcove. The music was too loud so I didn't try to listen to conversations all the time. I chipped in. I waited for people to speak to me. If conversations trailed off cos i didnt end it right i was less hypervigilent of this. If i hadnt said anything for ages i let it go. I enjoyed my food and concentrated on that. A bit of processing but mostly reassuring myself in my head with each bit "well that's ok". Basically I was really very quiet which is more my natural self AND WAS OK WITH THAT. 

Well the event happened. Much like the Christmas one, I actually enjoyed it. Because I wasn't trying as hard. It was like i took a step back.

I sat on the end and was in an alcove. The music was too loud so I didn't try to listen to conversations all the time. I chipped in. I waited for people to speak to me. If conversations trailed off cos i didnt end it right i was less hypervigilent of this. If i hadnt said anything for ages i let it go. I enjoyed my food and concentrated on that. A bit of processing but mostly reassuring myself in my head with each bit "well that's ok". Basically I was really very quiet which is more my natural self AND WAS OK WITH THAT. 

Unknown said:

Basically I was really very quiet which is more my natural self AND WAS OK WITH THAT.

Well done for not only getting through the event but also for being so accepting of your natural self. That isn't easy. 

Unknown said:

Today it was a success because I minimised brain frazzle.

Hopefully that will have a positive impact upon your health.

I'm pleased you navigated it OK in the end.

Well done you, you controlled the situation, you spent time being quiet, this is what we do to survive.