hi there, so Im tired of masking/acting/passing/mirroring. Iv decided people are not worth it from my observations and experience. just enjoying as much as I can whilst waiting to die right now. thank you for your time if you read this. Im sorry to waste it
Yeah I wouldn't recommend getting involved with mental health services if possible. They're ok but not suited for autistic people. They've been helping me for a while but they understand little about my autism and are treating me for that, or trying to anyway.
Hope your ok. Just try to stay positive and vent here when you need to. This community is like an online family we all look out for each other and offer support to those who need it x
I... I thank you for your reply's.
please do not worry about suicide but I also thank you all for your concern.
I will look more into neuroqueer thank you Glitter, as the definition seem a little vague to me. the Samaritans dont help, I may try SHOUT if I feel the need.
thank you for your kindness Luna, unfortunately the NHS mental health is an endless loop that makes me worse.
NAS81486, you are correct of cause, not all. I have no idea about the tribe, time will tell. you sound like a therapist :) and some of what you say is very subjective. however Im not questioning the sincerity of what you have said. oh I laugh, at myself especially.
if any of you would like to talk in more detail about anything I would love too. How ever you'd like, here or in private.
Robert. Steady on there fella!
You say that "people are not worth it".....and you may be right in many, many instances......but DEFINITELY not all.
You need to find your tribe. Perhaps you have - is this where you will find them? If not, you must keep looking because "waiting to die" is just another way of saying "I'm unimaginably miserable."
Just close your eyes for a moment and imagine how your life could be made better. Dwell in that place for a while in your imagination - savour it - pay attention to key details that you notice. Then, open your eyes. Write down the principle features that you noticed from your "happy place."
Perhaps you wrote down things you cannot possibly attain quickly or easily....if at all? That will be a good sign for you......it means that you do actually want things to be different.
No matter how hopeless, meaningless and miserable your life feels right now - if you can imagine how things COULD be different, then you have the outline of what you actually need to start working on now to improve things. That, my friend, is the meaning of a worthy life!
Do not despair. Do not give up. Laugh at yourself (this one really helped me.). Start plugging away at improving your life and improving how you feel. One baby step at a time - start small! It can be a very long journey, but it WILL be worth it, even during the first few steps of it.
I send you my very best wishes. I've been where you are. I do hope you can summon the fortitude to aim at "better" - I managed, so I expect that you can too.
Hello welcome.
Please don't feel this way. You are worth so much and you are unique, we all are in our own way and if people don't like it then that's sadly their problem.
Life is yours and you have the right to be yourself and enjoy it.
Please take care of yourself and do reach out for support if you need to. If you feel in immediate danger please call 999. A mental health emergency is as serious as a physical.
Look after yourself.
Sending love and hugs x
You are not a waste of time.
You don't have to be what others expect, let yourself be weird. Look up the term Neuroqueer for some advice on how to be more your real self.
If you feel like you want to seek out death, please find someone to talk to. If there's nobody you know, you can always call the Samaritans or text SHOUT to 85258 to start a conversation with someone trained to offer support.
