I identified so far 3 things I have to avoid, because my body reacts to strongly to them:
1. Elderflower bushes aroma. if there is to many of them in proximity producing rally strong aroma I feint.
2. Indian incense sticks. Burning them produces smell that makes me vomit almost instantly.
3. Gaslighgting by a supervisor. Because I have to obey them I can't ignore what they say, and eventually it leads to a meltdown. I had one on a shopping floor in a supermarket triggered by my manager, that was mis interpreted as 'disrespectful behaviour' for which I had a disciplinary hearing.
It often happens it's a specific behaviour of anybody, or specific behaviour or one specific person, or noise, lights, smells
and than you need to say stop and go away before you get frozen in spot,
when you get to frozen point, you're helpless, if trigger is a person, a 3rd person can prevent your meltdown by taking trigger person away, but that's wishful thinking there will be someone who will notice that and act in time
I've never had a meltdown as a result of a shutdown. I thought they are sort of mutually exclusive.
My shutdown look like I literally disconnect from reality for a period of time and don't remember what happened, it's like a hole in my memory
Maybe you were being overloaded with stimuli and your body was trying to shutdown to avoid further exposure and becuase you didn't know you didn't change enironment and it led to meltdown?
