My dad and most of his family emotionally neglected me, ignored me, controlled me to be a certain way and silenced me for speaking up and denied and rejected a lot of things about my health. When I told m
y dad I'm waiting for an autism assessment he reacted badly, telling me it's all in my head and he wouldn't read the information I gave him. My brother didn't say much either he didn't know much about it and he's always been negative and insensitive towards me. I suspect other family members also have autistic traits. They made my health worse constantly triggering me and I realized I can't make them accept me or understand me so I ended up cutting ties or limiting contact with a lot of them. I feel like I've been emotionally/ psychologically abused by my own family and it hurts. I'm grieving that I never had a supportive loving family. I'm not sure if getting a diagnosis will change things or if my family will ever understand and accept me. I'm worried I'll be lonely for most of my life. I only have a few family members I feel comfortable around but they don't fully understand or believe I'm autisic.