Therapy

I tried it once, 8 weeks, 1h session per week, it didn't feel like it helps at all, to the contrary, going again through bad memories only made reminescence more about them and made those memories stronger

I find that for me, there's a lifetime of suppressed stuff, plus the ongoing heartbreak of more recent life events, to process. Eight weeks wouldn't have scratched the surface, but it's interesting to hear your view on things as always. 

I have loads of childhood trauma and abuse, not fitting in, being left after 10 year long relationship, I don't care about it anymore, it's pointless to believe it has influence over you and that you can recover from it, when there is nothing in the first place, I didn't do all those bad things, and not planning on doing them to others

I have loads of childhood trauma and abuse, not fitting in, being left after 10 year long relationship, I don't care about it anymore, it's pointless to believe it has influence over you and that you can recover from it, when there is nothing in the first place, I didn't do all those bad things, and not planning on doing them to others

I reckon there is a right answer for each of us, except that they're all different

Part of my issue is I neeed to reality-test the stuff that I obsessivley ruminate on, and who else wuold have the patience to listen. Just being in my own head, and final arbiter of how skewed or otherwise I'm being, would not - for now at least - be the best thing. I just wanted to know that I'm not alone in needing therapy in the medium to long term. Somehow that thought yesterday got me into a big panic that I was the only one on planet Earth doing so. An insane worry, but sometimes one comment is all it takes to shake my 'certainty' about things.

I wish I could be that logical. But in fact talking therpay has kept me (barely) functional and able tow work for quite a while now. Myabe I'm just a very weak person. Or maybe we're just all different, and there's no right answer.