Public Speaking

i think i remember you say in another post/thread, about how you also playback the event and nitpick and end up being very critical of yourself, so pethaps its that aswell?

but 500 people... blimey, well done.

This is very true. I’m replaying it at the moment and am sure that when I lay down tonight to sleep, I’ll be doing so for a while. If I let it get on top of me, I’ll probably lose the night, so I’m aiming to do some things to tire myself out a bit more before bed.

good idea, occupy your mind elsewhere or your thoughts will just go round and round in circles

soon as that train of thought starts, it can be hard to stop it, so have to kind of "plough through it"or "snap out of it" which is how i refer to it, or you'll just be stuck in the same repetitive thought pattern

and when you go bed, put some music on low volume and repeat all(instrumental preferably), audiobook, anything that just gives you a focus elsewhere, and creates an external Atmosphere aslong as it doesn't prevent sleep

yeah, just a mild sound, constant, repetitive, just to focus outwardly instead of inwards

Well, I appreciate the suggestion. We all have things that work for us, and perhaps they can work for others too. All we can do is offer what we know and have experienced in the hope that it give someone something to think about.

I have contemplated trying a constant sound, such as a fireplace or rain sounds. I don’t imagine they would trigger too much thought, where as an audiobook could.

precisely, as you said, the narrative is already decided, and thus it turns into a session of beating yourself up essentially

hmm, well, see how it goes, i don't want to suggest anything that could make it worse, just thats what works for me.

deadsponge said:

your only sounding off from yourself, which is whats causing the thoughts in the first place lol.  its a form of anxiety 

I agree entirely. In these moments, we cannot  be a good soundboard for ourselves as the narrative is already decided. That’s another reason I find this community to be so helpful, it’s a chance to get a different perspective, but from someone who understands.

deadsponge said:

sound sensitivity, but not usually from my own sound

I too am not usually affected by my own sounds, or those that I choose either. However at night, if I hear something, I tend to focus on it, which then starts the thought processes back up again. It’s more to avoid spending the whole night alert and contemplating things I think.

yeah, and you never find the answer, because its either not there, you cant see it yourself, or your only sounding off from yourself, which is whats causing the thoughts in the first place lol.  its a form of anxiety 

hmm, i couldn't say then, i do have what i believe to be sound sensitivity, but not usually from my own sound i choose, and otherwise has to be pretty loud and accompanied by either competing noise, or shaking/vibrating, slamming for instance, though i believe there may be another component to that for me, association of the slamming with crap home life growing up etc

so i imagine it may be very different for you.

deadsponge said:

you'll just be stuck in the same repetitive thought pattern

I find this to be very true. Once I have fully explored a thought, at least to the point I feel that I have exhausted all options, I can find in these moments that I just start from the beginning again. Almost like an endless loop of repetition. Repetition can be an enjoyable thing, like the repeating of a satisfying word or sound, but not so much in these moments. It’s more like mental torture when stuck in a self destructive slump.

I think, for me at least, I find sounds at night difficult. My hearing is very sensitive, so I have avoided adding sound into the mix when trying to sleep. However, I have to admit that due to not doing this, there is the possibility of creating more potential for the self destructive thought loops as described above. Perhaps I’ll give it a go one day. I have some time coming up, so there is a possibility of some time for a bit of an experiment.

deadsponge said:

you'll just be stuck in the same repetitive thought pattern

I find this to be very true. Once I have fully explored a thought, at least to the point I feel that I have exhausted all options, I can find in these moments that I just start from the beginning again. Almost like an endless loop of repetition. Repetition can be an enjoyable thing, like the repeating of a satisfying word or sound, but not so much in these moments. It’s more like mental torture when stuck in a self destructive slump.

I think, for me at least, I find sounds at night difficult. My hearing is very sensitive, so I have avoided adding sound into the mix when trying to sleep. However, I have to admit that due to not doing this, there is the possibility of creating more potential for the self destructive thought loops as described above. Perhaps I’ll give it a go one day. I have some time coming up, so there is a possibility of some time for a bit of an experiment.

yeah, just a mild sound, constant, repetitive, just to focus outwardly instead of inwards

Well, I appreciate the suggestion. We all have things that work for us, and perhaps they can work for others too. All we can do is offer what we know and have experienced in the hope that it give someone something to think about.

I have contemplated trying a constant sound, such as a fireplace or rain sounds. I don’t imagine they would trigger too much thought, where as an audiobook could.

precisely, as you said, the narrative is already decided, and thus it turns into a session of beating yourself up essentially

hmm, well, see how it goes, i don't want to suggest anything that could make it worse, just thats what works for me.

deadsponge said:

your only sounding off from yourself, which is whats causing the thoughts in the first place lol.  its a form of anxiety 

I agree entirely. In these moments, we cannot  be a good soundboard for ourselves as the narrative is already decided. That’s another reason I find this community to be so helpful, it’s a chance to get a different perspective, but from someone who understands.

deadsponge said:

sound sensitivity, but not usually from my own sound

I too am not usually affected by my own sounds, or those that I choose either. However at night, if I hear something, I tend to focus on it, which then starts the thought processes back up again. It’s more to avoid spending the whole night alert and contemplating things I think.

yeah, and you never find the answer, because its either not there, you cant see it yourself, or your only sounding off from yourself, which is whats causing the thoughts in the first place lol.  its a form of anxiety 

hmm, i couldn't say then, i do have what i believe to be sound sensitivity, but not usually from my own sound i choose, and otherwise has to be pretty loud and accompanied by either competing noise, or shaking/vibrating, slamming for instance, though i believe there may be another component to that for me, association of the slamming with crap home life growing up etc

so i imagine it may be very different for you.