Published on 12, July, 2020
I just delivered a speech to little over 500 people. It was hard going, but I did it.
My only question is, in moments of success like this, why am I so hard on myself. Does anyone else struggle with balancing mood/emotions in moments like these?
i think i remember you say in another post/thread, about how you also playback the event and nitpick and end up being very critical of yourself, so pethaps its that aswell?
but 500 people... blimey, well done.
This is very true. I’m replaying it at the moment and am sure that when I lay down tonight to sleep, I’ll be doing so for a while. If I let it get on top of me, I’ll probably lose the night, so I’m aiming to do some things to tire myself out a bit more before bed.
good idea, occupy your mind elsewhere or your thoughts will just go round and round in circles
soon as that train of thought starts, it can be hard to stop it, so have to kind of "plough through it"or "snap out of it" which is how i refer to it, or you'll just be stuck in the same repetitive thought pattern
and when you go bed, put some music on low volume and repeat all(instrumental preferably), audiobook, anything that just gives you a focus elsewhere, and creates an external Atmosphere aslong as it doesn't prevent sleep
yeah, just a mild sound, constant, repetitive, just to focus outwardly instead of inwards
Well, I appreciate the suggestion. We all have things that work for us, and perhaps they can work for others too. All we can do is offer what we know and have experienced in the hope that it give someone something to think about.
I have contemplated trying a constant sound, such as a fireplace or rain sounds. I don’t imagine they would trigger too much thought, where as an audiobook could.
precisely, as you said, the narrative is already decided, and thus it turns into a session of beating yourself up essentially
hmm, well, see how it goes, i don't want to suggest anything that could make it worse, just thats what works for me.