The past year has bee a nightmare for my family. Constant anxiety..struggling....talking about my peoblwm over and over. Alot of blame on myself for being less than ideal..feeling like a grown manchild constanyl on edge with reaponaibility when im only doong bare minimum as it is.
I dont see how we can ever be a functional family with my list of deficits...codependancy and wanting sameness over moving up in world.
I feel she would be better moving on from me. I cant seem to get my head around myself and when i realise im really nor thinking like an adult i fear she will never jabe an equal.
Life has fallen apart and i want so little as an adult i seem.jaded by life itself...just following. With all these issues should i just accept what might be inevitable...that my needs will be too mixh for a nt to hold as baggage...least with someone else they may move towards goals rather than my anxiety laden existance.
