Hi there. I'm new here and am having a problem in my relationship. The main problem is that I don't like or feel anything for him. Because of my autism I feel very little about anyone, I just don't get attached. But also I am masking pretty much all the time so I don't think that helps either but if I don't mask I crash and burn so it's got to be done. The other more recent problem with my relationship is that I think it's become abusive and a bit toxic and cruel. Last night my boyfriend ran me down and embarrassed me in front of his friends and they all laughed at me. And he knows I hate being touched unless I'm feeling in a really good place and happy, and last night I wasn't but he intentionally touched me all over, not sexually, but he still did touched my skin and hair which really upset me. I want to leave but I've got no job, no money as such not enough to live on. I literally depend on him for almost everything. I don't know what to do for the best.
