Published on 12, July, 2020
Unfortunately, I agree with that. I am an astrophysicist, a neurophotonic specialist (medical application). But I am alone. Many admire my work, my technology. I master an impressive technique for health, but few know it because I do not know how to communicate. In a past when I do it, all have abused to me.I was a good teacher, the feeling goes great with the kids, the teenagers, but nobody wants to hire me. Soon I’ll be homeless because I won’t have enough money to pay my rent, my bills. I confess that since I’ve been on the autism forums, it’s been affecting my morals. It is true, I see that I am really different and not alone in this case but concretely I do not see many solutions for me.I have no family, no friends, no salary or pension. In short, I am tired of all this. Why be smart, do research, find solutions when no one cares, no one supports you and you are not socially good at finding a patron without being exploited by him.Sorry, It is not a good day and certainly tomorrow net yet.Diagnosed with Asperger's disease, the real deal !!!We are the world of tomorrow, the evolution of the human brain !!! ... Maybe well, but I was born too early to have a decent life in this society.Death is my friend, but she doesn't want me. Maybe after 3 near death experience, the next will finally be the right one.Sorry, sorry for this post.
Hey, I am sorry to hear that are you able to get benefits? so you can get a place to stay?
Also be proud of what you have achieved, society is going through a weird transition at the moment and the majority of it is becoming so shellfish people are acting so odd in their uncaring attitude as if they have been conditioned.
I don't know if you are a believer, but Jesus was bullied, humiliated and put to death to save us all. If you believe in God etc just think of Jesus he was rock bottom too with no money no home nothing , and yet he is king. Keep going keep changing the world keep being kind and get through one day at a time.
Do what you do out of love of others, try and start your own business or something to keep you through, can you teach online write a course? for example.
And remember you are loved so much.
Society has been in decline for ages and people it is getting so bad. i hope that people get kinder. it is good that you found your lovely wife.
and God loves you both too, remember that.
i really hope that things get better you need to have shelter and some comfort as do all human beings.
Thank you, Zara, for your support. Everything is a matter of energy and at the moment the period is particularly hard for everyone, it is a fact.I am a believer, but my faith is not that of this world, I know the question and the issues well: I studied theology at the university for 6 years in addition to my studies in science (maths, astronomy, astrophysics,...)My wife and I have a small business, but we’re still in deficit. We don't really know how to sell our skills and our knowledge. My wife is High Potential and I am Asperger. We always give a lot to others, almost everything, but we receive rarely in return. Today we are tired, exhausted.In my past people have often compared me to Jesus Christ because I have been humiliation, violence, harassment, incomprehension. I have been clinically dead three times, and yet I’m still alive.With my wife, through our knowledge and techniques, we have healed many people (AIDS, cancer, sclerosis....).We work in the shadows, in the discretion, people call upon us when their cause is desperate, when all possibilities seem to have been used. In short, we clean up the "***" of others. We have moral and heart nobility but as many say: it does not pay the bills!
I was born into a military family that cultivates secrecy, appearances, order and submission. Not true love. I was married for 18 years to a woman who fell into the Christian religion. For her, as an astrophysicist and neuroscience researcher I was a heretic, the devil, the incarnation of Satan. She tried to kill me. I had three children raised by her who refused to contact me since several years.
The only love I receive is that of my wife and that I can give her. That is a fact. For the rest, people love us only for what we bring them. But, this is not love.