# Daily updates 3 # by aidie

Just slept for 2 hours solid.

i was thinking maybe working autistics should get a 20% pay subsidy or a better tax allowance

hope you can relax over the weekend

Exhausted. Long. stressful and completely autism-unfriendly day. Head is pounding. I've made a decision. My strengths do not lie in this role - even though my skills do. I'll see it through but I think I need to look at other options if I want to progress.

Health comes first.

This reminds me of when I was in a public facing role - it's exactly the same. Now I know it's to do with cognitive overload and trying to keep track of an incredibly messy and chaotic working world. I've got more and more cranky as the day has gone. 

It's been hard work today.

thats  cool Pikl.  Keep yourself doing stuff.   Go out for a long walk.  say a mantra as u walk.

I've just placed a simple henna tattoo on my fave place to SH, it's a symbol I designed to represent me. I'm hoping it will give me a positive mark to focus on. Sharing this in the hope it may give others ideas for positive distractions x

back from my walk. I always feel better. it makes me sleep better at night.

u're very encouraging in that u r very resilient

i used to walk along the same route ( its on the way to asda )  along the coast. This is where  i met the surfer dude down on the coast we both have same interest in cleaning beaches and he invited me to join them ( he was part of the group ) . Theres no money no pressure ---- u can just copy or be taught by the ones who know all about meditative walking if u want the full teaching.

i just copied --- there isn't much talking because it is meditative. I know of another group in the city ut i never joined.

in last 2 week my social limitations are starting to crumble and i am now able to meet and talk with complete strangers. i believe this to me changing more.  

Can we see the website when it's finished?

So glad this is a 4 day week. It's been grueling and I think I may have over-handled some stuff but everything seems in hand (sort of, in a chaotic-nothings-caught-fire kind of way).

Still tired. Will be sleeping for another couple of hours before I do anything else. This role comes to an end in the next couple of weeks.

I have mixed feelings. It's been exhausting but I've enjoyed it - definitely been a challenge. I've certainly made an impact. Could I do this long term? - I'm not sure, the cognitive load is heavy and a lot of information gets delivered verbally which I'm not too great at processing (this was one of my clear markers on my assessment). It's been harder to get down-time between tasks and there's been a lot of task switching. I can maintain this - but only for so long, and it's been made easier because I know the team I'm working on, I know the people and I know the issues. Had this been a brand new role (as it was the last time I did this), without structured support in place I think I would have tanked. Some folk can move into roles "fresh" and it's all new. I'm one of those that would struggle to do that - it'd be too disorientating. Plus, in a more managerial type role where there's more conversations, conflicting views, sometimes a lack of confidence from people in what's going on that is a lot of stuff I'd struggle to navigate if I didn't understand the area of work.

May as well admit that now. 

Plus the HR issues have been minimal. I think that if I'd had to wade through that as well it would've put me off it full stop.

Thanks, always good to know someone is sharing the same experiences. Appreciated.

How did you get involved with the group?

it is, the surfer dude is so inspiring to talk to. The tyre fitter is my car tyre fitter so i get a discount

 its a good group of different people with a common goal  of reducing work/ modern day  stress. 

gg 

Sounds like a good group

loads of work completed today, I'm catchin' up on the developers,,,, and now looking at a counselling course ( certificate/diploma ) to see if it is beneficial/ i can effort it. I need advice on these courses.

just going on my meditative walk along the coast in the mindful walking group 

it includes managers, tyre fitters, mechanics, taxi drivers, 1 surfer dude, house wives, anxiety and depression suffers 2 of which have been sent on it by their GP !  

they have built them now and when u see them going they are just mesmerising

Had a lovely day getting together with a group of friends - nice food, nice weather - perfect. 

well I was going to start with Charles Babbage because he basically conceptualised a programable computer then I'll most likely go onto her I'm trying no to get sucked into the chronological accuracy of it in the sense of getting every date and person because it'll take too look I will just take the main historical points of interest and use those and in order to pass it's about the creating on the website not the accuracy of the content