# Daily Updates 2 #

I’ve just talked to GP. My usual GP wasn’t there and so I chatted online with different one and he insisted on calling me. So we had a phone chat. My GP wanted me to start therapy and I wasn’t sure and today I just wanted to tell them that I’m willing to try it. But this guy just told me to self refer to IAPT and kept asking me why I’m feeling the way I’m feeling (you’ve got house, you’ve got family, husband, job - why aren’t you happy? You’ve got everything) Maybe he wanted to help me but he made me feel awful because I’ve got everything and still feel anxious and depressed and thought about killing myself. I’m so ungrateful, weak and negative person. And now  I’m crying again. 

I couldn’t focus at work, talked to one person at work and she helped me with the work and helped to calm me down. My GP is back on Monday and I’m going to contact her and see what she thinks. Maybe I’ll increase the dose as well. I feel very fragile. 

I couldn’t focus at work, talked to one person at work and she helped me with the work and helped to calm me down. My GP is back on Monday and I’m going to contact her and see what she thinks. Maybe I’ll increase the dose as well. I feel very fragile.