# Daily Updates 2 #

I’ve just talked to GP. My usual GP wasn’t there and so I chatted online with different one and he insisted on calling me. So we had a phone chat. My GP wanted me to start therapy and I wasn’t sure and today I just wanted to tell them that I’m willing to try it. But this guy just told me to self refer to IAPT and kept asking me why I’m feeling the way I’m feeling (you’ve got house, you’ve got family, husband, job - why aren’t you happy? You’ve got everything) Maybe he wanted to help me but he made me feel awful because I’ve got everything and still feel anxious and depressed and thought about killing myself. I’m so ungrateful, weak and negative person. And now  I’m crying again. 

sorry u feel so bad ----- --yes he was trying to quickly help ---- u can talk to people here via the PM system if there is someone u trust. I listen to 2-3 people in here. i get things wrong for sure, everyone i talk to is different but i can help suicidals that dont get on with standard therapy counsellor's etc 

sorry u feel so bad ----- --yes he was trying to quickly help ---- u can talk to people here via the PM system if there is someone u trust. I listen to 2-3 people in here. i get things wrong for sure, everyone i talk to is different but i can help suicidals that dont get on with standard therapy counsellor's etc